My Walk Of Faith

Boast in the Lord

2010-02-16T01:34:00.002+08:00

Let not the wise man boast in his wisdom
Or let the strong man boast in his strength
Let not the rich man boast in his riches
But let the hum-ble come and give thanks
To the One who made us, the One who saved us

I will boast in the Lord my God
I will boast in the One Who's worthy
I will boast in the Lord my God
I will boast in the One Who's worthy, He's worthy

Let not the wise man boast in his wisdom
Or the strong man boast in his strength
Let not the rich man boast in his riches
But let the humble come and give thanks
To the One who made us, the One who saved us

I will boast in the Lord my God
I will boast in the One Who's worthy
I will boast in the Lord my God
I will boast in the One Who's worthy

I will boast in the Lord my God
I will boast in the One Who's worthy
I will boast in the Lord my God
I will boast in the One Who's worthy, He's worthy

I will make my boast in Christ alone
I will make my boast in Christ alone
I will make my boast in Christ alone
I will make my boast in Christ alone

I will boast in the Lord my God
I will boast in the One Who's worthy
I will boast in the Lord my God
I will boast in the One Who's worthy

I will boast in the Lord my God
I will boast in the One Who's worthy
I will boast in the Lord my God
I will boast in the One Who's worthy, He's worthy
He's worthy

such is life.

2010-01-13T00:43:00.001+08:00

有时候，真的搞不清楚，人们脑力在想什么。
有时候，真的不明白为什么到现在，虽然过了这么多年的时间和逃避，有些东西还是不会改变的。我也无法去控制，看来有些事，从小到大都没改变，以后也不会。
要是选择走哪条比较危险却对自己来说比较有意义又比较丰富的路，也是自己所想要的，也许会让些别人不高兴，不赞成，有些也会不明白，不满意。要是呢，选择走另一条路可能会让多一点人高兴，但自己却有可能会永远永远的后悔。

你会选择哪一条路走呢？你会用什么条件来确定自己所选的是最恰当的选择呢？

生活中会有好多这种经验，也会有好多好多的考验。你会怎么去对付它呢？

为什么？

生命力有太多太多的问题，太多太多的烦恼。到头来，有时候，选择不是由你来作主的。算了吧，说好了，有些东西，是永远永远不会改变的。

and eventually it just becomes a neverending cycle that repeats itself, over and over again.

Give Thanks

2009-08-18T23:22:00.002+08:00

Came across this when I was back in Singapore looking for worship songs to bang on the piano... one of Mum's old worship songsheets :)

really like this song.. So decided to post it up since my blog is stagnating anyway, and as a reminder to always give thanks to the Lord for all his mercies and all His blessings. :)

How good it is to give thanks

How good it is to give thanks unto the Lord
How good it is to give thanks unto the Lord
For He heals the broken hearted, binding up their wounds
It is good to bless His Holy name
x2

And we give thanks unto our Saviour
And with a heart of gratitude we give Him praise
His mercies shall endure forever
I will worship Him all of my days

Such a good song.
On a sidenote, ignite tomorrow! YAY :D
Okay I better get off to bed, class early tomorrow and I need to use my lunch break to finish up some last bits of tute work. :)

I thank God for strength to pull through the week ahead and to let His light shine in me :D

2009-05-13T20:14:00.006+08:00

Ah. Another day gone by...
Time really flies. Doesn't seem that long ago when I was back in Singapore, and now, it's coming to end of semester again, exam time again. Oh man, 10 weeks gone past just like that. It's kinda scary now, to think about it...

Anyway, I noticed I haven't blogged in awhile so I thought I'd pop by and make a quick entry whilst I eat my dinner. It's been a pretty good week so far, as compared to last week which was almost hell =/ I'm just glad OB is over and done with... Now I'm getting down to studying and revising for exams. Phew. Time is ticking away though.

Today I crashed Adrian's music lecture - brought back memories from days of MEP in Dunman High. That wasn't too nice while it lasted, but now I sorta miss it. I miss those days of listening to instruments, to appreciating music together with the rest of the class, and even to a slight extent, the history of music and the eras (yes yes, I do miss it)... After that we adjourned to the law library (AWESOME PLACE) to study! Law>Bailieu cos Bailieu seems to have turned into a chinatown-cum-fish market: It's appalling

I'm starting to understand my Econometrics better now which is in a sense, very reassuring for me. (: soon will have to work on Cost Management and Calc. Organisational Behaviour is a little worrying though, simply becuase I don't know what they're looking out for in the exam. It's so... ...unstructured? =/ People who do OB will know what I mean. Ohwell... The reason for this very late dinner is cos we all stayed in Law till pretty late before coming home. Adrian's so hilarious it seriously cracks me up. I'm so glad to have friends like Adrian Terry and Cherry in my life man.. lol just adds colours. (And yucky APPLE gummies eh eh?)

Then in the library after studying for awhile we moved on to this really strange convo, which made me realize how many of us actually were reconsidering whether or not Commerce was the right course for us! (obviously, Terry is excluded here, since he studies the STARS. LOL p.s we still love u terry :p) I've had this thing since like secondary school - always wanted to open a cafe... And last night I just found out Hoey wanted to open a cafe too. and this afternoon I found out ADRIAN wanted to open a cafe! AND CELESTE TOO. oh gosh we're all in the wrong course =/ we should all be in Cordon Bleu. Fwahaha. Ohwell, us accountants. Cherry was saying how bad the reaction would be if she called her dad and went "papa, I wanna study cooking". LIKE OMG. Ohwelll... Maybe , one day, I will. (:

mm. I wore a certain someone's Ben Sherman jumper today *grin*. It's starting to grow on me.. I might just hijack it and not return it just like another jumper... ... lalala. but actually wearing this jumper today just made me REALLY want my polo jumper. I wanted it last year... I've always wanted a polo jumper. I think their jumpers are really nice - but expensive >< WELL, so happens, I HAVE A DISCOUNT VOUCHER! Therefore, tomorrow, I will go down to Polo along with Cel and Cherry to take a look at what they have and the prices. Man, wish I had a casual job at polo. Pheweet! I'm thinking maybe I should just ask gor to get polo shirts back for me the next time he comes back (like at the end of the year) since it's cheaper in the states. lalala :D ah polo.. love... hehe... sadly, the voucher's only valid till Sunday. And I'll be in revolution camp from Fri till Sun! So my only chance to spend that money is tomorrow or Friday before evening when I head to church. mmmm.... HMMM....

Well, good news is that today I didn't spend any money! A bit low on cash after paying for revolution camp... But I'm so sure it's worth it. I'm actually quite pumped about camp! YEAH. hehe :D But yes, with money that I didn't spend and my savings, and eating at home more in the next 2 - 3 weeks or something, I can get myself that polo jumper. (i hope). HEHE. Gotta go and look tmr to see first I guess.. Man I'd be heartbroken if I can't get it I think. eep. I'd reckon I will. Ohwelllllll will just have to wait and see tomorrowwwwww. Ah.

okay back to Econometrics for me.. I can't stop thinkin' of my jumper =/ been thinkin' of it since that voucher came in the mail. oh man. okay SNAP OUT Gwen. Should think of more worthy things.. or people.. like.. Hugh Jackman. okay stop. have to stop. HAHA :D abit high on dinner (sugar in the food, must be). ECONOMETRICS! *yells* okay bye. Peace out.

P.s JOACHIM I'm waiting for you to comeeeeeeeee to Melbourneee.! YAY.

Love

2009-05-04T01:55:00.000+08:00

He drew a circle that shut me out -
Heretic, rebel, a thing to flout.
But love and I had the wit to win:
We drew a circle that took him in.
Edwin Markham

Was just listening to Pastor Benny Ho's sermon...and he was talking about love when he threw out this poem. I found it really meaningful, so I googled it (as everyone does nowadays) and found it was by Edwin Markham.

John 3: 16, Romans 5: 8
God sent his ONLY son, Jesus Christ to die for us on the cross (John 3: 16) to take away our sins, WHILE we were still sinners and unworthy of it. God CHOSE to love us, He CHOSE to demonstrate His love for us in that way (Romans 5: 8) and to forgive us and allow us to lay all our burdens, sickness, sins and anything that held us back in our walk with Him at His feet.

Draw that circle to include that person you haven't been able to today. (: do it.

I'm sorryTo

2009-05-03T12:52:00.002+08:00

To the dinosaur - I'm sorry. I know you say it's not my fault - but it is. Takes two hands to clap doesn't it? But I'll watch where we go from here, and I know you will too. :) All the best, and commit to God. I'll be praying for you. I know that whatever happens, you'll emerge stronger, and closer to Him than ever. And so will I. Thanks for being so open with me, and thanks for explaining even though there really wasn't a need to. You're a really really amazing friend and brother, and I thank God for you :)

Eep! Today's message was good - good job, Ps Angelo! There is HOPE with and in Christ! And the altar call was amazing too, God's presence was just so strong and the Holy Spirit was moving so greatly... I saw two people get slain too, and it was just so fantastic! One of the ladies got up and kept saying thank you and God bless you.. it was just wow. :) It was my second time doing ushering with Team 2 (you guys are awesome, btw), yesterday being the first itme. And it was really a good experience, and yea I'm happy to be back serving God by helping out in the church! It was prety crowded today, and yea, there were quite a few salvations! Praise the Lord. Saw them talking to the pastors at the back, in the welcome lounge. I'm sure they'll be well equipped and have enough support and all as well as they embark on a new walk of life and relationship with Him! :D

Yea okay I'll stop there.. Gonna pop over to Adrian's to cook dinner :) For Cel and Adrian (and possibly Cherry) tonight. Gotta do Intro Econo and Calc assignment as well >.< eeky. To Cal and the rest - sorry i couldn't join for lunch today yea :( The queue was REALLYYYY too long =/ *hugs!*

???

2009-05-02T23:05:00.003+08:00

I feel as if I don't understand you -
or is it that you do not understand me?

Today we met up for OB assignment... Weren't TOO productive, but I'm sure we'll get everything done before we know it, in time for submission and with time to check as well. After that I went to church, and off to Dhe's 21st! It was pretty fun, enjoyed myself, and was well taken care of... Special thanks here to Vin, Colin, Mitch, Twanson and some others.. Thank thanks to Chaz, Dhe, Adrian, Colin, and Enoch for the concern and making sure I texted once I got home so you guys kknew I was back safely! <3

I'm not falling, I'm not falling, I'm not falling.

I'm gonna hit the sack soon...It's pretty late, but just been sitting around being bothered by some things on my mind. Pray and commit to the Lord. Did have fun tonight, but felt like somthing (or someone) was missing - or maybe it was just something amiss inside me. Strange, that.

It's been 2 days. But I say: I'm not falling, I'm not falling.

Dhe quoted Corinthians in his speech - that, I must say, was pretty awesome. Love is patient, love is kind. Good one Dhe, it was a good speech :) Very sincere and heartfelt and entertaining. I should really try get some shut eye soon. I'm feeling pretty out-of-sorts lately, probably the amount of work, lack of sleep, and timing in the month too. Could also be the gloomily cold weather. I'm gonna wash off my makeup and lie in bed for a bit. Looking forward to sermon tomorrow, then doing econometrics assignment after =/ yikes.

I really don't like this feeling.
I don't know what you're thinking.
I'm not falling. I'm not falling

Called Adrian on the way back from Prahran, wanted to get maccas, was kinda hungry and thought of maccas after Amanda and Chaz suggested it to Robin before. :p But he wasn't free so I got myself a pack of small fries and ate it on the way home. Alright I"m off now then. Long day tomorrow as well, don't wanna crash. Took quite a lot of pictures tonight, will upload them on facebook tomorrow or really soon if not! On a sidenote: Thanks Cel for your labcoat! You rock my socks. I'll see you tmr darling, miss you already :(

I'm sorry.

and I'm waiting.
I wish I understood what you're thinking.
I wish you understood how I feel.
I'm sorry

对不起

2009-05-01T23:53:00.003+08:00

对不起，也许是自己对人太有信心，太过天真；也有可能是自己笨而已，好骗。
有时候做事情；说什么，好像没经过大脑似的…问题是: 这不是情况。

不是故意让你担心的。
也不是故意惹你不高兴。
我没想到会有这种反应，
但现在想来，也明白为什么你会有这种感觉。
谢谢你的关心。

对我的另一个朋友,也觉得很对不起。
对不起,可能给她误会了,
惹她不高兴,不满意,不负气…

看起来脾气随和也不一定是件好事吧。
很多人会说是,
但今天,我知道:不一定是
能容易的和人家谈话，
能容易得跟别人沟通，
到头来，可能不是一件好事。

知道你生我的气，感觉特别不好受。
希望你明天不会了，
希望明天能和你通电话，
感觉上，好像蛮久没和你说话了…
但也不久。
好啦，我再去试试看能睡觉吗。
知道你生气地感觉真的真的不好受
到今天我才知道。

To both of you - for different reasons - I'm sorry.
Maybe being too friendly has it's downsides as well.

people pleaser?

2009-04-27T21:41:00.004+08:00

I was going to have my little bitch moment about the bubble tea lady today, but I shall not.

TOO BAD ADRIAN AND CEL, YOU WONT GET TO SEE ME VENT HERE. Decided to be a little more civilized tonight. hahaha :) But am highly tempted to do another chinese post, yes Cel cel? (oops did I say that)

:D.
Random thought popped into my mind just like 5 minutes ago -
Are you a people - pleaser , or a God - pleaser?

mm.

Anyway, message by Pastor Zilly Aggrey was really good.. Reminder not to neglect the Holy Spirit - that was the second message..and the first on the talents. Really deep and insightful I think, God really speaks through this Man. Anyway the message had so many elements and aspects but at the same time it was pretty clear and to the point and yeah.. Yet can be broken down into so many different things to learn. Going to do that for QT this week instead of following the ODJ :)

*makes mental note to remember to get recording from church this coming weekend*

Today I got a rather shocking message from a good friend.. >< Was pretty upset for him, but I'm sure he's all good, he can take care of himself. You know who you are yea, just remember that I'm praying for you dear :) and that no matter what i'll be here to listen.. not just b'cos you were there for me when I needed you, but also because I love you as a friend and a brother in Christ :) remember to turn to God, in your storm, and trust in Him, have faith that He knows best. It's difficult yes, but you'll get through it. her'es a hug -HUG- for you.. Lean on Him and you will not fall.

So yea, I had a fantastic dinner, with hilarious company (good, though, dont' get me wrong) then followed by hot chocolate at kokoblack! ><>< it's getting really cold these few days, I'm really really freezing. I slept frozen last night and woke up feeling like a popsicle! brr brr...Need thicker jackets (good excuse to go shopping lol)...and a better heater..

and the blanket! I think the electric blanket is going on the bed again soon. mildly iffy about it though, last time a friend took a nap on it i was told that it was kinda sending light currents =/ not good, is it. >< Spoke to mum for awhile today, it was a good chat :) Quite excited to go back to Singapore for the break - I get to see kor kor in Shanghai, and go for dance classes with mummy and daddy, and Baldwin might be visiting! YAY! :) sounds good to me. ^^ Was telling mum about how we don't learn how to appreciate some things.. but wont' go into detail.. Guess sometimes we tend to complain heaps but not think about how priviledged we are...

Alrightey, gonna hit the sack once the pics upload. Got to study and do some research and stuff tomorrow... ^^ Just thank God for yet another wonderful day that has passed :)

Empower Me

2009-04-26T13:58:00.003+08:00

Empower Me

Nobody knows how weak I am, better than You;
Nobody sees all of my needs, better than You.
And nobody has the power to change me,
from what I was born to be,
Jesus be strong in my weakness,
Empower me!

Empower me,
like a rushing river flowing to the sea,
Lord send your Holy spirit flowing now through me,
Till I'm living as Your child,
Victorious and free,
Send the power of Your love, empower me

Nobody's eyes see through my soul, better than Yours;
Nobody's love can make me whole, no one but Yours.
And nobody has the power to lift me,
to reach for eternity,
Jesus break through my defenses,
Empower me!

Empower me,
like a rushing river flowing to the sea,
Lord send your Holy spirit flowing now through me,
Till I'm living as Your child,
Victorious and free,
Send the power of Your love, empower me.

Mark 4:40
"Why are you so afraid? Do you still have no faith?"
Hebrews 11:1
"Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see."
John 20:29
"Then Jesus told him, 'Because you have seen me, you have believed; blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed.'"

Who is the God I serve? I serve a loving God, a forgiving God, a God of second chances. I serve a God of healing, I serve a God who loved so much He gave His one and only son that I might have a chance to have a relationship with Him. I serve a God so amazing that you can't contain Him in words. I serve a God who has infinite wisdom, who was and is and is to come, who knows the beginning and the end, who created the universe in 7 days. I serve the perfect and living God. God, who has conquered sin, who has conquered evil, who was conquered the grave.

I serve a God who will never ever let go of me if I fall. I serve a God who will answer all things I ask through His mighty and powerful name in His will. I serve a God who only wants what's best for me.

Learn faith. Be certain, be sure. Do not doubt. For God will never leave nor forsake any one of us. We have fallen so so short of His glory and His perfection, yet He loves us. He knows everything we've done, everything we've thought, every thing about our past, our present and our future. And He loves us all the same. In faith, give ourselves to Him wholly, and let Him lead. He will guide you, empower you, give you light in your darkness, strength in your weakness, living waters in your deserts, health in sickness, riches in poverty, wisdom in times of trial. Jesus breakthrough my defenses, Empower me. We are not our own - Cor 6:19- 20 "your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God. You are not your own; you were bought at a price." Nothing we have is ours, but everything belongs to Him. So give ourselves wholly unto Him. We can only give back because He first gave us. We are weak - we cannot do anything without Christ. So commit unto Him.

Jesus, take the wheel.

Conquered!

2009-04-24T07:14:00.003+08:00

"You're an idiot" (Hoey, 2009)

LOL. Thanks, I know I am, BUT I'VE FINISHED STUDYING AND SOLVING ALL THE QUESTIONS ON ALL 6 QUIZZES ON THE LMS! teehee. Now just gotta pray really hard before I go into the exam hall. Oh, and get a coffee, AND, catch another half an hour of sleep :)

Whee, I pulled an all nighter.. Hopped into bed at 7.30am, got a text from a certain someone saying he was gonna swing by and come get his stuff -_- so slept for an hour and had to go pass it to him.. yikes. Ohwell what to do, busy people start uni early =/

Now I'm back here waiting for Adrian to help me solve two questions that I cldnt do, then im gonna pop back into bed. I'm kindaaaaa sleepy. Gonna have a full day.

Dinner with Joachim (and maybe the rest of the lifegroup?) tonight! Yeahhhh.

Okay that's all for now cos Adrian taught me how to do the questions. And i'm questioning my coherence. I just wanted to declare that I FINISHED STUDYING WOOHOOOOOO and I'm happy. AND, I managed to attend Josh's graduation last night! Yippee. AND, lifegroup! It was awesome, think the sharing last night was fantastic! And a special thanks to Joachim for sending me backkkkk :D much appreciated! Okay. By the time I get to the exam hall i'll be all good and awake again. :D

I'll blog again soon. and Celcel, I LOVE YOU. >< Smile okay don't be blue you've got me! RED? :D YELLOW? Think of the "rainbow" on my notes yesterday at the cafe! <3 see you soon Hun... [p.s don't be mad at the Chinese posts, I'll explain them if you want :P]

撑的下去吗？

2009-04-23T08:38:00.003+08:00

读书…
读书…读书…
作业，练习，考试…
好多事情等着我去做，
做啊，做啊，做啊，
怎么做了好像还是做不完？

好累啊，都快生病了…
明天考试，没办法。
祈祷祈祷，
直到自己能够撑住，
因为不是靠自己的能力；坚强，
而是靠主耶稣的恩典。

希望这个新期快快过去，
下个新期会更好。
在过两天就能好好儿睡个大觉。
可以玩，可以休息，
可以呼吸，方轻松一些了…
盼望着星期六新期天快来。

发生了什么？

2009-04-22T22:25:00.004+08:00

今天和你说话的时候，还是觉得一样的奇怪，一样的不自在。
为什么呢？
我懂不是因为我还爱你；不是因为不懂得手放开。
也不是因为想念你，或想念以前跟你在一起的生活…
看见你,会觉得没什么话好说的；
可能我们之间真的是无话可说,但也不必这么冷酷吧…
我知道自己一行一百八县的放开你了。
我也懂，也接受我们是不能够在一起，
对这儿，我一点也不伤心难过。
很清楚心里完完全全的不再爱你了。
现在，我最爱的是耶稣，
他在我心里排第一，
在他后面也排着一些我爱的人；对我重要的人，
但在这小群人里面没有你的位置。

有时候,看见你的facebook也会觉得很奇怪。
不是特地或故意去看的，没这么无聊
你tag了一些朋友我才注意到的。
到现在，你还一样的不让我看你的网页，
难道你以为我不懂吗？
难道你以为这么做有什么用处吗？
难道你真的有事情瞒住？
太多可能，太多也许。
为什么你这么幼稚？
为什么我觉得你一转眼间就判若两人？
怎么变也变的这么快？
我认识得你，不会这样做，不会选择这样处理事情。
但现在感觉上，你不是我当初所认识的人。
说起来，那也不一定是个坏事吧。

对你的感觉不是生气，不是心痛，也不是伤心。
我想，只是为你觉得可惜而已吧。
认识你的时候，你完全是另一个人，
现在连我都不认识你了。
是你整个人变了，还是对我的态度变而已？

我知道为什么我们之间会这么冷，这么不自然。
是因为我知道你不把我当作朋友。
但，你也不把我当作仇人。
所以，我想把你当作朋友对待也不行…
但又不能把你当作陌生人对待吧。
因为这，所以我们之间会这么不自然，不舒服咯。
跟你在一起的时候，不懂得应该怎么做。
对你好，把你当作普通朋友对待，你又不把我当作朋友的回答。
对你不好，周围的人也会觉得奇怪。
避开你，会不会是一个更好的选择？
说来说去，若我想和你做回普通朋友，看起来也是没可能的。
总之，孤掌难鸣吗，我白白的在那里一只手晃来晃去，
到头来的结构也不是一样 —
人家把我看成白痴而已吗，哪儿有人家自己站着，把手摇来摇去的？！
我能做的，能说的，全都付出了。
你不想做朋友的话，我也没得选择，只有奉陪咯。

可能你有自己的原因
也许这些原因我永远也不会懂
但无所为咯。我已原谅你了，可能你还没有原谅我。
我不懂
谁能够说明天会发生些什么？
谁会知道耶稣会有什么计划？
谁能说，"我能够知道未来"？
无所谓吧，只好望后退几步。
看看明天会带来什么惊喜。

哇哇，我想念的人跑去睡觉了…我也得读书，睡觉。
好多作业，考试等，得为它们做好准备。
对了，差点儿忘了说，经天出门时看到了一个帅哥！！！
直到现在我还记住他那迷人的笑容。
真的好帅哦！！！
天啊，帅呆了。我可没骗你哦。
好了，发花痴发够了，哈哈
现在自己开始觉得自己无聊。
好啦，不说这么多了啦。哈哈
走了。
晚安，世界 :)

p.s. 不懂为什么竟天真得很想念他。你干吗这么早跑去睡觉！起床，读书！！！懒惰虫,死睡猪！哈哈。

Faith.

2009-04-18T07:34:00.003+08:00

It's been such a hectic and tiring week... Funny, how the holidays seem to be more packed than school days, how we seem to get busier, how we have more to do. Deon came over for breakfast yesterday and we had a pretty good time catching up over pancakes while I bitched about how much work there was to complete over the holidays that it was barely even an easter "break". Deon mentioned her tutors/lecturers said that it wasn't really a break, merely "a non-teaching week" where you have to be "self-taught". SELF TAUGHT? WITH THE AMOUNT OF ASSIGNMENTS/TAKE HOME EXAMS/MID SEMS THE WEEK IMMEDIATELY AFTER? Ohwell. Heaps of studying to do.

Even dad was kinda like : Wow what're you up to this week..? And I told him and I could just imagine that his face would be something like --> o.O
He said "aren't you on a break?" so I replied "yeah.. we are.. "break".. "

Anyway I shall try to make this post short, as I need to get ready for GROUP ASSIGNMENT meeting later. (see what I mean?) We had a terrible one the other day. Well, not terrible per se, just long tiring taxing tedious and mildly unproductive. And today I'm kinda going grudgingly. *drags feet* I'd much rather have done it another day - my cell group is going cycling today to the beach! I sooooo wanna join them! But ahwell I think this is where I should stop complaining and just go make the best of it. :)

Went for ignite service for the first time this week! And it was amazing. I won't go into detail but basically, for the past two days before Ignite I felt that God has really been emphasizing "faith" to me.. And i'm like. yes God, faith. What? Where? What do you want me to do? If you tell me "faith" will you not show me where I should be having faith in, what I should be having faith in or how I should be using this faith? And when I went for Ignite service it was just like - BAM. In your face Gwen. It wasn't something huge, it was small and simple but it meant so much to me. God is so good :) His timing is absolutely impeccable, I must say. Sometimes God is shouting in your ear , and still, you don't hear it. Why?

Gav was sharing with me about the Shakers' conference last night. Both Sherene and him got their breakthroughs in their ministries on one of the conference nights, and Gav was so excited about it. And what he said to me was.. I guess God has been pretty much "shouting it at me" but I never had my breakthrough till now. (On a sidenote, I know you're really excited Gav, and I am for you too!! yay!) but yeah.. y'know, sometimes we just have to not only pray "God what is it?" but also "God OPEN MY EYES and my EARS and show me exactly what".. "guide me".. mm? :)

I feel that the past coupla days God has really been challenging me to live my life as a child of God. How to do it? The little things I do, my short temper, my actions my words, what I think aloud.. etc etc.. How I conduct myself.. I guess I really have to watch it. And pray that God will guide. :) It's quite amazing really, sometimes I have my "bitch-moment" and some snide thought comes into my head... and I feel God giving me a reality check.. "GWEN. stop." and I'll be like o.O *slaps self* (okay not literally but you get the point). Yep it's really awesome. Also been learning how to just give everything up to Him, cos in His hands it can't go wrong. Not just big serious things/things to do with emotion (e.g. walk-with-God issues, family issues, relationship issues, friendship issues, etc etc) but also practical little things (e.g. studies, assignments, even just day-to-day decisions such as whether to go out and meet this person, or stay at home and clean the house, or go out with someone else instead etc etc) and reorganizing priorities. It's all good :) It's all His. Happy sad good bad awesome terrible.. All His :) And really just come, sit as His feet and wait on Him. It's the most amazing thing ever.

Okay I'm going to end here with an extract from a song, Potter's Hand and a quick mention to Cel's latest blogpost.

Here's the link: http://iloveceleste.blogspot.com/2009/04/dont-you-just-melt-i-jealous-very-very.html

It's so *awww* and gush-worthy, as she said. CEL you just made me go all soft inside. Rarghh. haha. Trust you to do something like that/ blog about something like that.. gushy gushy. Stop Jai-Hoing okay you look awesomely adorable but unbelievably stupid as well (HANNAH CAN VOUCH FOR THIS). LOVE YOU CEL CEL AND NAH NAH :p...

The Potter's Hand - Chorus
Take me, Mould me, Use me, Fill me
I give my life to the Potter's hand
Call me, Guide me, Lead me, Walk beside me
I give my life to the Potter's hand,
The Potter's hand

God has a plan

2009-04-13T10:10:00.003+08:00

I must say I've had a rather good Easter weekend. And actually pretty much a great week last week as well. :) It's been a really hectic and busy week, with Assignments and research to do and everything... Also been meeting up with and hanging out with quite a few friends.

Played badminton with A and Ken on Tuesday, had dinner with A on Wednesday, hit the gym with Gavin on Saturday and breakfast after, then tennis on Sunday after service + lunch with the group... Etcetera.. Thursday was probably my longest day due to the OB group assignment meeting, and the extra lecture due to good Friday and lifegroup meeting after. I left my apartment at 9.15 in the morning and only got home at almost 11pm that night. It was such a tiring night - but the lifegroup meeting was so worth going for. It was a really good sharing that day.. and I guess the fact that it came on the busiest day of the week really made it more relevant as well.

I have come to realize lately that I do actually have problems saying "no" to people. Friends have pointed this out as well, and after much thinking I realized it was true. To a certain extent, at least. As a result I tend to overpack my schedule with social events even amidst my assignments - yes i do get things done, but it results in less time for myself; less time to rest; less time to sit and just spend time waiting on God.

So that brings me back to sharing on Thursday at lifegroup... We watched this short video... And basically, in a nutshell, it said - Do you find it difficult to say no? What is your direction, where are you headed? Jesus knew His direction - he was headed for Jerusalem, he knew he had to die on the cross, he knew the Father's plan for Him and He obeyed. What have you said yes to today? Learn how to say yes to the Father's will, that you might say no to other things in the way that were unnecessary. Reorganize your priorities - so you can be able to say no because you've already said yes to something greater. In Mark 1:35 we see that Jesus retreated to spend some time alone with God, He needed to check himself and pray to God and keep focused on God's direction for Him. Jesus didn't stop moving. People expected him to stay and perform more miracles, but He knew He had to go to Jerusalem, he knew He had a calling there, he had to be there for the Father wanted Him to be there. And He kept moving on his journey headed toward Jerusalem. He stopped here and there to attend to people who called upon Him but He never stopped moving.

And you know what, these things that he said no to - staying back in Capernaum to heal more and do more good - they weren't bad things. They were good things. But Jesus knew his direction and purpose, He knew where he was going - to Jerusalem. So he kept on moving, kept on journeying, kept on getting nearer and nearer to his destination. Sometimes what holds us back is the good, not necessarily the bad. Sometimes things we have to say no to might be good things, not necessarily bad things. That is why we need to say YES to God's instructions and directions, so we can say no to other things that don't bring us towards that destination that God has for us.

The guy sharing in the video told a story of his kids on the beach... They were picking shells, and his son had a whole handful of shells in his hands. They weren't really pretty shells, mostly fragments as it's pretty difficult to find full shells on the beach unless you really look carefully. Then they saw - in the water - a beautiful starfish, and apparently it was HUGE and really really really beautiful. His son wanted to go and pick it, so they said "go get it!" and the son ran out into the water... stopped for awhile, then ran back. He said "why don't you go and get it? go and get it!" and this time the son ran out a little further, stopped again, and ran back again... And the dad said "what's wrong? Go get the starfish! you were really close the last time! Don't you want the starfish?" and the son wants it, so he runs back out again, and this time even further... and stops... and comes back again.. and the dad asks "what's wrong?" and the son says "i can't take the starfish cos my hands are filled with shells!"

Think about it - have we learnt to let go of the shells so that we can take the starfish? Or are we holding on to so much that we can't get what's better? The shells were pretty - but nothing comparable to the starfish right? What do you have to let go of? For me, I think it boils down to reprioritizing things in my life. What can wait? I need to choose not to let the expectations of other people dictate what I do, but instead do what brings me nearer to that one thing/one place God wants me to be. One of the quotes from the video that stood out was - Sometimes, the enemy of the best is not the bad, but the good. It's quite true, isn't it? It isn't always the bad things that hold us back - even the good can. Do we get too caught up in doing good for others that we don't see where God is calling us to go? What keeps you on the track and what pulls you away? What is it that God is calling me to?

These are things we find out as we spend more time with the Lord, waiting on Him and talking to Him.

Ephesians 5:15 - 17
Be very careful, then, how you live - not as unwise but as wise, making the most of every opportunity, because the days are evil. Therefore, do not be foolish, but understand what the Lord's will is.

This morning as I spent time with Him, I read this verse in Isiah - 43:18 - 19
Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland. Last half of verse 20, and 21... because I provide water in the desert and streams in the wasteland, to give drink to my people, my chosen, the people I have formed for myself that they may proclaim my praise . God has forgiven my sins, and God has greater plans for me. Even in my "wasteland" and times of desolation, God has a plan. God has "a way" and "streams" for me. God will provide, and God will guide.

So. I shall end here with a song :) Today is the beginning of some changes in my lifestyle. :) I want to spend more time waiting on Him. I want to learn to say yes to say no.I want to know what God's plan for me is. I want to know where my path is; where I should walk. I want to be who God wants me to be. :)

Doen Moen - No Eye Has Seen
No eye has seen
No ear has heard
No mind has conceived
What the Lord
Has prepared
But by His Spirit
He has revealed
His plan to those
Who love Him

We've been held
By His everlasting love
Led with loving kindness
By his hand
We have hope for the future
Yet to come
In time we'll understand
The mystery of His plan

Heart of Worship

2009-04-12T00:09:00.003+08:00

Heart of Worship

When the music fades
All is stripped away
And I simply come
Longing just to bring
Something that's of worth
That will bless your heart

I'll bring You more than a song
For a song in itself
Is not what You have required
You search much deeper within
Through the way things appear
You're looking into my heart

I'm coming back to the heart of worship
And it's all about You
It's all about You, Jesus
I'm sorry, Lord, for the things I've made it
When it's all about You
It's all about You, Jesus

King of endless worth
No one could express
How much you deserve
Though I'm weak and poor
All I have is yours
Every single breath

I'll bring You more than a song
For a song in itself
Is not what You have required
You search much deeper within
Through the way things appear
You're looking into my heart

I'm coming back to the heart of worship
And it's all about You
It's all about You, Jesus
I'm sorry, Lord, for the things I've made it
When it's all about You
It's all about You, Jesus

What have we made of worship? Why do you worship? What is worship about to you? Who do you worship for? Who do you worship?
Jesus you are amazing. Worthy of all praise and adoration. Worthy of all exaltation. You are the Lord most high and to be praised. Not for what you've done, but for who you are.

Lord take me back to the heart of worship. Take me to the place where I can worship you with all my heart, all my soul and all my might. Teach me and mould me. Guide me, lead me and show me. Help me God, in everything I do - I surrender unto You.

nothing.

2009-04-11T22:37:00.003+08:00

oh gawd... Cel where are you :( Why go to Torquay for. come back here.....

I need to learn to be more dependent on God. Lean on Him. Not on anyone else.

Hannah why aren't you picking up your phone..when you see this post you'll know when I called you.. roar..

I am currently going to make myself a cup of hot chocolate. I have no idea why I'm even blogging. I think I shall blog tomorrow - about Easter service.

We'll see if that happens. On a more random note - I found out this new thing (well not found - Chaz introduced it): Google calendars. Pretty awesome stuff. I probably shall go organize it now. mm.

Roar. hot chocolate.
CEL. Hannah. :( cel hurry back..and hannah why are you asleep.. wake up..call me back aww c'mon. >< hurry people, hurry. These are the times I wish I didn't stay alone. And Harriet's gone too. Oh Harriet.
At least I still have the trams. I'm not making sense am I. I really should stop. I wanna go for a run. Maybe I should. Okay sh.

Silly Sausage.

2009-04-04T23:32:00.002+08:00

I've been called a silly sausage probably about three times today. And I guess i really do the silliest things. I'm playing facebook scrabble right now and waiting for my scrabble mate to come up with the next word, while i started thinking about going to church tomorrow, and metcards. Which made me think about today. And silly sausage.

I took the train to Glen Waverly this arvo. Tried to buy a 5 times 2 weekend metcard from the 7-11 near my place, since it's cheaper.. but they ran out.. So i was just thinking to myself - well, nevermind I'll just use my normal metcard. So I did. And when I got to GW, I tried to validate my ticket as I walked out at the barriers and the machine kept reading "wrong zone". ... ... ....I'm amazed.

and then later on ... you know what i'm too sleepy to continue thinking. hahahaha.. i'm going to just click post and finish that. just know that i did a coupla silly things today.

signing off from Chaz's computer! :D

*makes mental note: I must rmbr to buy a weekend ticket tmr (since its zone 1+2). must rmbr when going back for church. must rmbr ><*

p.s i miss you.

Created in His image

2009-04-04T07:45:00.002+08:00

God is good :) more than good, God is just beautiful and perfect beyond words... And He loves us. how awesome is that! :D

Genesis 1:27
So God created man in his own image, in the image of God he created him; male and female he created them.

God never shortchanges us... He loves us so much that when he created man, he did so in His own image! He created us in His own PERFECT image... He didn't choose to create us in the image of anything less than the best.. anything substandard.. He didn't do it in a shoddy manner, he created us in the image of the BEST.

What does that mean to you? I asked a friend that this morning. We were fearfully and wonderfully made. From every organ down to every last cell in our bodies - we were fearfully and wonderfully made. Our God is so so powerful, and does such wonderful things and sometimes we just take it for granted. Like my friend pointed out.. Some things that we do just comes so naturally to us especially with all the advances we have in technology and everything, and we don't think about how or where these things originated from.. [his example was music.. "comes from such complex parts of the human brain.. like how in the world does someone come up with this"..] And it's really quite "wow", and well, it's just so amazing, isn't it?

For me, even little things like the sun rising, or the fact that I'm alive and awake, the fact that I have a roof over my head, these things that I take for granted..Finances, shelter, etc... Where do they come from? My parents? Where do my parents get it from? It's all God's blessings and provisions. Even in our everyday life, He uses our growing up process - our experiences, our ups and downs, the people he places around us - to mould us into the man/woman of God he wants us to be. It's awesome 'cos I know that no matter what, God NEVER shortchanges us. He created us in His likeness, and no matter what happens in our lives, it's always a learning experience - a change for Him to mould us in whichever way He wants to, and if we let Him do that, it is only for the best and nothing less.

:) The weather yesterday was getting rainy and cold. I was freeeeezing. Cancelled our Friday arvo vicmart rounds with Cel as it was pouring. I know right, how weird is that - it never pours in Melbourne. Ohwell... The two of us headed back to my apartment for a bowl of hot soup and a cup of milo instead :) It was good. Later on met Dhehan for a bit since he was around the area (it was his birthday yesterday - so Happy Birthday Dhe! See you tonight ^^) and well, yea just glad the rain stopped later in the evening...

Then Tjin popped by in the evening, we just hungout for awhile and chatted before heading down to the Melb Uni night market to see what was up there. It wasn't as "happening" as I thought it might be, but we did bump into cool people there! like Joshua and Annabel! :D Instead of eating nightmarket food four of us headed down to the city for dinner. LOL... Then I met Ann-Nyee for a HTHT (I quote Josh, as Singaporean as he is, to use short form for even heart-to-heart-talk). :D And it was good too.

Still kinda have quite a fair bit of things on my mind, but God is getting back to me on it :) and I am glad for that. Slowly but surely. :D I'm going to be off now, heading down to Glen Waverly to bum with Chaz! Yay! Confessions of a Shoppaholic, hopefully... Then off to Dhehan's gathering at loulous@Knox later tonight. Awesome stuff. CHAZ HERE I COME. YAYYY

John 14: 1 - Do not let your hearts be trouble. Trust in God; trust also in me.
John 14: 27- Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.

Do not be anxious

2009-04-03T02:36:00.004+08:00

Philippians 4:6-7
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

Do not be anxious. Pray and petition to God. Be thankful before Him, for all He has given. Patience.. and with it will come peace. :)

I ought to be in bed, it's 5.45am... But here I am typing this blog entry. LOL. Finally sorted out all my assignment dates and such, printed all my notes for tomorrow as well. All geared up for uni tomoz, only problem now being : am I gonna fall asleep? :p

Nah, I think I'll be fine - Berocca/Coffee double shot, and Cel with Tim Tam's should do the trick. Munch munch.

On a more random sidenote - Gav and Sherene, thanks for the compliment! Apparently, the tau yew bak turned out really well! (Not enough sauce though, kinda over-simmered it a little). thanks :D I'm glad you guys liked it.

Ah, so many things on my mind :) Good things, not so good things. Well, at least, no bad things... "by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God"... Lord I thank you, and I commit to you. What I don't see with my human eyes, you see. What I don't understand, you know. You know me, You know all there is to know about me, and You know things about me even I probably don't. I pray for guidance :) I pray for wisdom. :) I pray for understanding :) I pray for patience. :) I pray...I pray... I pray...

Really thank God for a good week this week. Thank God for a good week in uni, thank God for new friends, thank God for His provisions in areas of need, thank God for each new day... Thank God for the wonderful sunshine, thank God for my amazing friends (you know who you are), thank God for His inexplicable joy and peace and comfort... Thank God for mummy and daddy back home, thank God for keeping kor kor safe even though his car is not in a very good condition now =.=, thank God for so many many amazing things... ... and also, I thank God for you.

Whatever the issue - do not be anxious, but commit to the Lord by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving. And you will find the peace that transcends all understanding...

God, what is YOUR will for me?

2009-03-31T07:22:00.002+08:00

celeste! Hahaha Go finish up your essays instead of typing blog entries that make EVERYONE turn into a pile of mush >.<

http://iloveceleste.blogspot.com/2009/03/you-jump-i-jump.html

haha man why do I even bother following.. lol you two lovey dovey people. :D I'm so happy today! Cos I woke up early to cook! and it actually smells nice atm! (Although its not done yet) hehe.. And cel is happy..AND I'm having churros with my two darlings! AND it's sunny out so we can go sit on the grass! Awesome stuff.. The weather this week is going to be amazing, praise the Lord. Oh i'm in such a good mood :p haha..

Yesterday I watched this youtube vid: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cyheJ480LYA Yes yes, Gavin I'm outdated.. but it's so good. Really makes you think and reflect about things you've done in your life, and just shoved the most important person out... but yet He's always there - He's always been standing there.. He's seen everything you've done, He's seen you drift away.. but yet He's still there. Just waiting for you to come back..and when you do, He just comes right in and pulls you out into His loving arms again... We don't appreciate Him enough, and we don't thank Him enough. For all He's given for us, what have we done or said? What do our actions show? What do we take for granted? So many many things...

It really reminded me once more of how God has been ever so gracious to me.. When I was at one of the hardest times I could remember, when I thought I was never going to get out of it, when I felt that I had hit rock bottom, He showed me that He was there. He showed me things I'd never seen before, and He reassured me of His love, gave me peace and joy beyond understanding. He surrounded me with people that I never expected to be able to help and well yeah! God is just so amazing, and I'm just so thankful for all that. :D

I'm gonna go check on my tau yew bak stew now and see how that's going.. Gav and Sherene, hope it's good! :D Cross your fingers. hahaha.. Then Hannah should be coming over! hip hip hurray.. then we're just gonna have to wait for Cel cel. Time to take a look at my next IE assignment too - Ben, goodjob for the first one! I'm so happy :D

Well I'm off now - but I wanna say:

Have you thanked God today?

<3 Looking forward to the rest of the week. Praise the Lord!

rusty blog

2009-03-30T14:14:00.000+08:00

well!
Here's a post cos Cel complains I blog so seldom that she can't even be bothered to check for updates!
(I feel so loved Cel, thanks)

Haha :D i'm having the monday blues ): tutes and lectures.. *zzz*. and assignments!

And, I did the dumbest thing ever.. but i'm not going to say it here..... :D

Been in a really good mood the last coupla weeks, and God has been soo awesome..

OKAY CEL THERE'S YOUR POST. lol i'll post again soon when i can be bothered to type more and coherently. lol..

CHURROS TMR WITH CEL AND HANNAH! YAY!!! I MISS YOU HANNAHHHHH

Raymond Lam - Ai bu gou

2009-03-11T18:50:00.003+08:00

Raymond Lam - 爱不够

收藏在眼眸　常徘徊左右　愛猜到沒有　
愉快玩笑後　能全然退後　你開心就夠
這種感覺太親厚　講一千句也不夠　
假使講了你聽到後　或會走　
這種戀愛太罕有　不須真正擁有
成全　衷心祝福然後　就放手

放手　放開所有　彼此更自由　
放手　其實我絕非愛得不夠　
放手　豁出所有　還有這個好友　
已經　已經足夠

遙遠是宇宙　靜靜在背後　去看守就夠　
這種感覺太親厚　講一千句也不夠　
即使一剎有過衝動　挽你手　
這種戀愛太罕有　不須真正擁有
成全　多捨不得仍然　是放手

放手　放開所有　彼此更自由　
放手　其實我絕非愛得不夠　
放手　豁出所有　還有這個好友　
已經　已經足夠

放手　我的牽掛　找不到盡頭　
放手　期望你幸福甚麼都有
也許　愛很深厚　然而我早看得透　
放手　至可擁有

我知道放手是最好，而也是唯一的选择。但为什么这么难呢？为什么，心碎了，还是一样能够爱的这么深？

不是不想，而是不会。

Uni Reopens.

2009-03-04T21:28:00.003+08:00

Today was generally a really really good day! The weather was cold, but I loved it. Really wished I could've just spent my whole morning out. Was sleepy though, so ended up coming back to my place to take a nap before my following classes. Roar.

For some reason (no, I'm not complaining, t'is good) I was in a rather good mood for bulk of the day. Even though it was nice and bright and sunny and all. =D Finally started reading and studying again tonight! I am satisfied. (: Spent a good 2 hours + at gloria jeans /borders just now just reading my notes and doing my practice questions for first week. Phweet!

Had a really fantastic lunch and hangout time with Cel and Hannah yesterday...Man, i miss you guys already. Roar. Where are youuu. Then had a yummy dinner with Gav and Sherene! We were his guinea pigs, but the food was actually rather yum! Go gav! (: hahaha.. Well next time it'll be my turn. heehee..

I'm pretty delighted that uni has started! First three days of classes have been pretty good. Let's hope this semester shall be a better one! (somebody, say amen!) :D and eyecandyyyyy is all around. Nah just in calculus class, actually :p. Lalala. the class is super full though, there are barely enough seats! Looking forward to calculus tute tomorrow. (: (Especially so now that I've done my tute preparation!) And introductory Econometrics looks rather interesting (or at least, so it seems in the tutorial). Made new friends in the last three days! Shall look forward to more. Bumped into some old friends and been meeting up with some of them as well, it's all good. All good. And better, been playing scrabble heaps! Found my scrabble buddy! Awesome huh :D Delightful. And very pleasant company, i must say.

Tonight, after studying, I popped to safeway before heading home. Walking the aisles kinda put me in a .. pensive (?) mood. Yep, I think pensive is apt.
Radiant Detergent...
Milo...
Nutella...
Coke...
Lasagna...
Crunchy Asian Salad...
Those days are gone huh. (: ): ?: >.<

Well I'm going to head off for time with God now. It just started raining, and so it's freezing here. >.< Better put on thicker clothes and shut the window. I shall end with a quote from Cel's blog.

It felt like.. the blade was hovering closely over my heart. And then it was stabbed in, VERY sharply. And that was not all, the blade was twisted over and over again inside my heart. Till all that was left was a pile of mush and pulp.

I'm guessing it's from a book. But I won't know till she tells me (:

For now, I'm off. Hugs to all!

P.S GAV YOU OWE ME A SCRABBLE MATCH (and please bring the two letter word list THANK YOU!) hugs

P.P.S Congratulations to Jia Yi on your rather gd results :D hehe i'm happy for you, Praise the Lord. keep studying hard, and keep praying! hugs

P.P.P.S CEL AND HANNAH I LOVE YOU BOTH VERY VERY VERY MUCH. HUGS AND KISSES

Friendship.

2009-02-28T15:36:00.003+08:00

Somebody very close to me and very important to me once wrote this in a letter. I came across it today while cleaning my room (yes I'm finally doing it) and thought I'd just share it.

"I find the beauty of friendship is actually in the imminent separation. it is the seeming frivolity of the relationships, that unspoken knowledge we admit yet feel hesitant to submit to.

It is the cause for friends to feel that natural urge to spend any conceivable minute together. To link arms, hold hands, mentally interlocking each other's lives physically. It is the cause for us to wittingly revert to our childish ways, to drop all pretenses and savor the moments we are able to conjure new memories in the short span of time we have as one.

The beauty in such friendships is the richness that exudes from the quality of the relationship. It is the friendship made by accident, formed with chemistry, built in love. These types of bonds do not fade away after goodbyes, nor do they degenerate in time. They can only grow each day, each month, each sparse moment you are able to meet again. With each conclusive goodbye, we are ending a stanza in our poem; and this poem will do nothing but tell of our tale, and ripen with age.

But as we lose touch and eventually stop conversing altogether, we may in time look back and reminisce over our youth and foolish ways. The nostalgia serves only to strengthen that forgotten thread - only forgotten, yet never disintegrated. However, to indulge in the past cannot do one much good. why delve in one beautiful memory when there are infinite more to be carved into your life's journey? This is where the beauty lies - the knowledge that whilst your life may not be in your control, the opportunity to fulfill multiple friendships throughout it, is.

And at the end of the road, when I am taken from the world, I can lie down and honestly know, "It's been a productive journey. I have no regrets now.""

:D I love you so much darling. x) You know who you are.. Thanks for all the love, support, encouragement, time, advice and so much more..thanks for always being there when I needed you. And here's to many years more of friendship (lest you eat me, as threatened). And I quote you: "what am I without you?"

Can't wait for you to be back. <3 much love.

A world of fools.

2009-02-27T23:18:00.003+08:00

Why do I think of you even when I drink milo?
Why do we have to have shared so many memories?
Why can't I seem to get you out of my head?
Why can't you give me just my last wish.

Or are you that thick.

Why are we such fools, you and I?
I was blind. Now I see.
You? Perhaps you're still blind.
I pray for you every day. I still will.

Today I played HALF a scrabble game with Gavin! GAVIN REMEMBER TO CALL ME TO FINISH UP THE OTHER HALF AYE! (I'm gonna thrash you! whoo!) Oops did i say that? :p
Hmm. Then had ice cream with Gav and his friends, Christine Ong, Ben shane, ben kane, and Gav's sis Sherene! (: yay. It was great fun! Laughed sooo much. ben shane is a joker........

Hm. okay i'm going to pack my room. and prob go to bed. Finaly hit the gym.. after a good (maybe?) 3 months or so? yeah.. feels really good. Maybe I'll go again tomorrow. (: Yay.

2009-02-22T15:29:00.003+08:00

I'm so disappointed with you.
Why?

I was a fool...
but now, you're the fool.

This year.

2009-02-03T15:52:00.004+08:00

This year - I want to start my year right.

Lately i've noticed.. I don't know what/who I can trust nowadays. I dn't know what can believe. Maybe I've believed too much before, or too little? I pray for wisdom. I pray that God will show me what is good, what is bad. What is true, what is false. What I should believe, what I should not. Who are friends, who are acquaintances, who are to trust in, who are not.

This year - I want to start my year right.

This year - I'm going to work towards starting each and everyday on the right note.

This year - I'm going to work towards spending time with God, first thing each day.

This year - It's gonna be a better year. It's gonna be a better year.

This year. This year. This year I'm gonna seek. This year I'm gonna grow. This year I'm gonna see. This year - I'm going to know. I'm going to know.

Today's song:

Cry Holy

In my lonliness, you are there
To reveal your righteousness, in my despair
Jesus, I long for you
There is no one else, No one like you

So I cry holy, worthy, glory, majesty
You reign on high
Far above all the earth
You are my God, my Lord and King

When I'm faraway, you are there
To draw me back again, into your hand
Jesus, I long for you
There is no one else, No one like you

So I cry holy, worthy, glory, majesty
You reign on high
Far above all the earth
You are my God, my Lord and King

So I cry holy, worthy, glory, majesty
You reign on high
Far above all the earth
You are my God, my Lord and King

简单爱

2009-01-28T01:45:00.003+08:00

Chinese New Year has been pretty good so far! (: eating, visiting, eating, visiting. Lol..first day was not too bad, but second day was awesome fun! Especially when we had "guest of honours" Terry gor gor and Shu Yen jie jie! Who are like.. never ever here *grin*. OKay well, not never ever, but its been awhile since they've been able to join us for CNY. Had an awesome camwhoring session, and dai dee, and scrabble and wine and food, glorious food! Will put the pictures up on facebook and my picasa soon - and when that time comes, feel free to go take a look at the pics!

http://picasaweb.google.com/gwentan90

That's for those who don't use facebook, of course (:

Well, on to today's post.. In relation to my facebook status, just one of the many things I have come to realize in the past few weeks since I got back to Singapore, through the many things I have seen and experienced. Which brings Jay Chou's song to mind - Simple Love (yes, I did a direct translation - shoot me *grin*). Below are the lyrics. It's just kinda been playing in my head for awhile now...

周杰倫 - 简单爱

说不上为什么
我变得很主动
若爱上一个人
什么都会值得去做

我想大声宣布
对你依依不舍
连隔壁邻居都
猜到我现在的感受

河边的风在吹着头发飘动
牵着你的手一阵莫名感动
我想带你回我的外婆家
一起看着日落一直到我们都睡觉

我想就这样牵着你的手不放开
爱能不能够永远单纯没有悲哀
我想带你骑单车
我想和你看棒球
像这样没担忧唱着歌一直走

我想就这样牵着你的手不放开
爱可不可以简简单单没有伤害
你靠着我的肩膀
你在我胸口睡觉
像这样的生活我爱你，你爱我

想简简单单爱
想简简单单爱

我想大声宣布
对你依依不舍
连隔壁邻居都
猜到我现在的感受

河边的风在吹着头发飘动
牵着你的手一阵莫名感动
我想带你回我的外婆家
一起看着日落一直到我们都睡觉

我想就这样牵着你的手不放开
爱能不能够永远单纯没有悲哀
我想带你骑单车
我想和你看棒球
像这样没担忧唱着歌一直走

我想就这样牵着你的手不放开
爱可不可以简简单单没有伤害
你靠着我的肩膀
你在我胸口睡觉
像这样的生活我爱你，你爱我

想（你在我胸口睡觉）简简单单爱（你靠着我的肩膀）
想（我想带你骑单车）简简单单爱（你靠着我的肩膀）

我想就这样牵着你的手不放开
爱能不能够永远单纯没有悲哀
我想带你骑单车
我想和你看棒球
像这样没担忧唱着歌一直走

我想就这样牵着你的手不放开
爱可不可以简简单单没有伤害
你靠着我的肩膀
你在我胸口睡觉
像这样的生活我爱你，你爱我

有时候，真的好累啊。

2009-01-22T07:24:00.002+08:00

真搞不懂，为什么，到现在还会被梦吵醒？为什么，我刚开始觉得可能自己能开始学会接受的时候，却发现到自己时还不能放手，还不能接受的呢？

为什么，有时候，感觉到好像生命常拿自己来开玩笑-而且是个残忍的玩笑？

真搞不清楚，有时候连自己在想什么也不懂，只知道，三更半夜迷迷糊糊爬出床的感觉，又不能回去睡的感觉，很辛苦。

每天睡觉之前会祈祷，会叫神保佑，叫他帮我学会应该放手时，就放手。应该放开的东西，就放开。但每次以为可以开始放开的时候，每次以为自己能够控制感情和想法的时候，每次以为可能自己可以再学会慢慢一步一步站起来从新再来的时候，却会在自己无法控制的梦发现到我还是没这个能力。

梦，真的很神奇。真的是种了解不到的东西。

可能是心理还有太多没有回答或无法回答的问题吧。

现在要准备去上班了，希望被恶梦吵醒之后，今天会比较好。新的一天，新的开始！走之前，很想对读者说：我请求耶稣保佑你，给你过得开开心心，给你你所需要的力量度过日子，渡过难关，给你天天能够向他学习，学会怎么靠近他，怎么依赖他。

谢谢耶稣-我爱你。

He is always there

2009-01-16T13:27:00.005+08:00

First of all - three cheers for the weekend!

No more sitting at the office desk turning myself into a tub of lard for at least the next 2 days (: This week has been a rather awesome week, actually! Busy, yes, but nonetheless very interesting week. Went for an SSO (30th anniversary) concert on Wed night, and the Volvo Ocean Race cocktail thing on Thurs night. T'was rather eye-opening...

PM Lee was there on Wed night, apparently moved almost to tears by an encore piece played in honour of him that night - it was the first clarinet concerto he played when he was in Secondary school, or so I heard. Got a chance to talk to him, actually more of say hi and smile at him while my brother and dad spoke to him... Met a whole rainbow of personalities that night.. Thursday was more of familiar faces from Dad's company, and enjoying the boat tour as we got to see the boats they would be sailing off in. Good luck to all the sailors for the next 9 months! From the video they showed us, it'd be a tough ride. a 9-month race! "Life at the extreme" was the slogan for the night - and I can understand why (:

So anyway, main point is: Today I read a blog that I haven't been to before (did make a mental note to, many times in fact, but never got down to reading it) and some things really struck me even as I glanced throguh it over my lunch break (yes, i was sitting here in office eating on my own :p).

God works in many amazing ways and we don't even realize it... Few things I wanna say to that person though - (: Ask and you will receive, Seek and you will find, Knock and the door will be opened for you. (I think i might have blogged about this sometime back, can't quite remember). Sometimes we think we're seeking and we do not find... why? I myself have realized why over the last one month. Through the massive fall I took, I learnt many things that maybe I woud never have if things hadn't changed in my life.

The bible said SEEK and you will find, not look and you will find. I didn't even open the bible for the verse - it popped right up in my head. and something somewhere whispered: "have you been looking? or have you been seeking?"

What's the difference then? Looking and seeking? This is from our everyday dictionary :

Look: to turn one's eyes toward something or in some direction in order to see
Seek: to go in search or quest of; to try to find or discover by searching or questioning

Seeking takes a lot more than just looking, it requires a kind of hunger. I always thought I was seeking, and asking, and knocking, but nah. I have always been looking. Maybe that's why it took me so long to find. (: Why does it seem then, sometimes when we don't seek, God suddenly seems to reveal so much? I guess in a sense, seeking can be a subconscious thing. you think you're not seeking, but in reality, you're not looking. Deep inside you ARE seeking, even as you make mental note NOT to look.

Personally for myself, there was a period of time I did seek. I sought with my heart.. then after awhile it probably got replaced by complacency and comfort. and i thought perhaps i was seeking all the time, but all i was doing was looking. Suddenly situations change, and cause this need in me - a hunger;passion;longing;necessity for me to find God once again. I didn't SEEK out of my own accord, but somewhere inside, my soul sought. And i think tha'ts when God started revealing, and teaching and guiding and showing me just how wonderful He is. How wonderful He has always been. How to find my joy in him, even in this abyss, in this place that sometimes seems like a junkyard, in this place filled with all us sinners. He has taught me how to find hope. He has taught me so much more than I could ever ask. (:

Perhaps that's why, sometimes we seem to seek and we don't find.. But we don't seek and we find. Why? Maybe we've all been looking.

Are you still looking? Seek.
Are you stepping out of your comfort zone today? Seek.
Seek, and you WILL find.

So anyway on a lighter note: Song for today-
Sometimes When We Touch

You ask me if I love you
And I choke on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly
Than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you
On what you say or do?
I'm only just beginning to see the real you

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Romance and all its strategy
Leaves me battling with my pride
But through the insecurity
Some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer
Still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
Still trapped within my youth

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

At times I'd like to break you
And drive you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through
And hold you endlessly

At times I understand you
And I know how hard you've tried
I've watched while love commands you
And I've watched love pass you by

At times I think we're drifters
Still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister
But then the passion flares again

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Beautiful, passionate song, with powerful lyrics.
In my opinion, of course. (:
It's a song that's been in my heart
- I'll be waiting till the day I see you again (:

2009-01-11T16:35:00.002+08:00

Why I Love You -- A Poem by Hilary D Ray

When you ask me why I love you, I don't know what to say.
I love every part of you in every single way.
But if you want specifics, I'll try to meet your wish
And do my very, very best to make a simple list.
I love you for your arms that hold me every night.
I love you for your kisses, sometimes strong and sometimes light.
I love you for your patience that never seems to end.
I love you for the fact that I can call you friend.
I love you for your lips that always seem to smile
When you look upon my face for just a little while.
I love you for your eyes that see deep within my soul.
I love you for your ability to always make me whole.
I love you for your honesty, I know you'll never lie.
I love you for your passion, so much it makes me cry.
I love you for your quirkiness and the little jokes you tell.
I love this and a million other things as well.
You see how hard it is to narrow it all down.
There are far too many reasons, but one thing I have found...
I love you for your brains, but I love your body too.
In short, I love every single thing that has to do with you!

I wouldn't say it's a fantastic poem but it conveys a lot of words in my heart... I wonder if you still remember my poem to you?

Anyway, happy sabbath people! =D Sermon was fantastic again today! I really wanna post a huge shoutout to my greatest love - God! Today I want to be thankful of Him, for everything He has provided me with and everything He has shown me. But most of all, I want to thank Him for showing me once again to find that hunger in me for Him, the longing, the gap in me that needs to be filled by Him and only Him. I cannot live without you, Lord! =D

Cheerios, heading out now!

Happy Birthday Elvis!

2009-01-08T14:10:00.005+08:00

Well first of all.. a HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ELVIS (yes, elvis presley).. MY DARLINGGGG (yes i know he's in teh grave -.-).. Although we should probably be commemorating his deathday not birthday ): but anyway! :D hahaha yes! Jan 8 1935 (if my memory serves me right for the year)..! So let's all sing a birthday song. =D

Ah, today has been a good day so far. And i'm looking fwd to the rest of the day being a good one too! Albeit being a day of thoughts, it's been a rather refreshing day. Well, what have I been thinking of then? Ha. too many things (: but they're good thoughts, good thoughts. Read Cel's blog just now and really have to agree with her on somethings.

Sometimes it's only when we step out of the picture and look do we realize where our part in it was. but not just for the bad times, also the good times Cel. (: also the good times. We have to constantly be learning, constantly be thinking about how to make ourselves a better person... And yes Cel, if not for him (them) then for myself (ourselves). Who knows what the future holds? only God.. Being realistic though, some wounds don't heal so quickly, and you can't force them to or they'll never heal properly. But having the hurt doesn't mean you can't be happy (: Hang on to the Lord for strength, for joy, for refreshment.. for wisdom and guidance.. and He will lead you. Remember, sometimes it's the calm IN the storm, not without the storm (:

Just not too long ago (probably a week?) a verse popped into my head. - Seek and you will find. Now, the bible said SEEK and you will find, not LOOK and you will find. So how do we seek? (: Chew on that.

The song I have chosen for today is The Bare Necessities! (: i think it's a very simple and cute song, but holds so much more meaning than it shows. Enjoy the lyrics and for those who've heard it - Good on you! It's from the Jungle Book.

Look for the bare necessities
The simple bare necessities
Forget about your worries and your strife
I mean the bare necessities
Old Mother Nature's recipes
That brings the bare necessities of life

Wherever I wander, wherever I roam
I couldn't be fonder of my big home
The bees are buzzin' in the tree
To make some honey just for me
When you look under the rocks and plants
And take a glance at the fancy ants
Then maybe try a few

The bare necessities of life will come to you
They'll come to you!

Look for the bare necessities
The simple bare necessities
Forget about your worries and your strife
I mean the bare necessities
That's why a bear can rest at ease
With just the bare necessities of life

Now when you pick a pawpaw
Or a prickly pear
And you prick a raw paw
Next time beware
Don't pick the prickly pear by the paw
When you pick a pear
Try to use the claw
But you don't need to use the claw
When you pick a pear of the big pawpaw
Have I given you a clue ?

The bare necessities of life will come to you
They'll come to you!

So just try and relax, yeah cool it
Fall apart in my backyard
'Cause let me tell you something little britches
If you act like that bee acts, uh uh
You're working too hard

And don't spend your time lookin' around
For something you want that can't be found
When you find out you can live without it
And go along not thinkin' about it
I'll tell you something true

The bare necessities of life will come to you

God is always always there

2009-01-08T00:31:00.003+08:00

James 1: 2 - 6
Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish it's work so you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault and it wil be given to him. But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind.

(: Sometimes we don't see what God has in store.. but we just have to trust that He has. Sometimes I wonder why things happen, why I feel a certain way, why I behave a certain way. Sometimes I regret things, sometimes I wish I could change things I've done... But now I have to start learning to ask myself.. where are teh learning points? If I were given a chance to do it again woudl I do it differently? How? What does God want me to see from this. Where is the wisdom and experience to be gained?

These are things I don't ask. These are things I need to ask. I'm gonna share one thing I have learnt recently.. It is that at times , we think God isn't there. But I'm really glad to be a christian, bcos i know He is. THrough everything, the ups, the downs, the not-ups-and-not-downs.. through the fun, the boring, the sad, the happy.. He is there. and whenever we need someone, He is there to lean on, to turn to and to trust. (:

"Even though we stray way at times because of our pride and ignorance, He's always patiently waiting for us to run back into His embrace" - this was by a very very very close friend of mine. (: And it is so true. Thank God for everything! And commit everything else unto the Lord. (:

Today I want to thank God for teaching me that I can find the calm IN the storm with Him in my life. He doesn't promise to take away the storm, but He braves through it with us, and shows us how to do it in a composed manner.. Not (quote Pastor Lawrence Chua, 4Jan09) like a chicken running around without a head. ha!

Praise the Lord, for everything! :D Everything and anything at all. Praise the Lord.

Love

2009-01-06T13:06:00.003+08:00

Has anyone ever wondered - what is love?

(: Well, I have. And a lot more so recently.. God is love.. (: And in His word we can see what love is..

1 Corinthians 13

"If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flmaes, but have not love, I gain nothing.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love."

This is love. no matter the parties in question, this is love.

The bible put's it so so simply! Love is as such.. Love is so great, powerful.. even more so than faith and hope. I believe this is because WITH love, along comes faith and hope and all the rest. (: Love is simple - it is us, as humans, that make things complicated. Even myself, I am guilty of that. But it is amazing what God shows us through His word.. God is truly wonderful. (:

Without God's love in our lives though, we cannot truly love.. So thank God i have Him in my life, and His love in my life..! :D

God is Good. Welcome, 2009!

2009-01-01T17:15:00.003+08:00

Just wanted to share my devotion for today... (: bcos it was so good and relevant to me.. It's from "Our Daily Journey"

Reading: Romans 1:11-17
God's Clock
Last evening, people around the world were checking their watches and clocks to be ready when the new year came in. Thousands crammed into Times Square in New York City and millions watched ta home as the famous ball dropped and marked the start of 2009.

Revelers shouted, Christians prayed, and young people blew horns and danced to welcome in the new year. Many offered toasts, and everyone said, "Happy New Year!" to someone.

Time moves on relentlessly, bringing us joys and sorrows, heartaches and happiness, disappointments and victories - and another new year.

The computer tells me the time, as does my captain's desk clock. My truck hsa a digital clock in the dashboard. And I check the huge clock by the IMAX on my way home from work.

Clocks record man's time to the second. Many people have PDAs to help them plan their time and remember appointments. Many are uneasy until their schedule for the day or week is set, and they get cranky when it gets thrown off.

God's clock is different from ours. His timing often disrupts our schedule - in spirte of our best efforts to stay in control. Accepting His timetable is a tough part of spiritual maturity. Interruptions, delays, layoffs, changes, and accidents are part of life, and God is never surprised by any of them. An example of this truth is found in today's reading. Paul wanted to go to Rome but was prevented until the time was right (Romans 1:13).

You may have wonderful trips planned or special events lined up in 2009. They may not happen, but in the end you can be certain that God's timing is always perfect.
-Dave Egner

And an additional passage reading that well, really struck me.. was Ecc 11:5
As you do not know the path of the wind, or how the body is formed in a mother's womb, so you canot understand the work of God, the Maker of all things.

:D Hope that kickstarts your new year as it did mine! Cheers

Song for Cel!

2008-12-28T01:33:00.001+08:00

This song is specially for Cel and Hannah! :D Hehe.. You guys will alwyas be my sunshines! And hope the same for you too (esp cel!).. Hannah's the brightest sun :D

Lovee you babes.. so much.. (:

You are my sunshine
My only sunshine
You make me happy
When skies are grey..

You never know dear,
How much I love you
Please don't take my sunshine away.

:D

The Colour of Blue

2008-12-14T22:55:00.003+08:00

The Colour of Blue - S Club 7

I have always wondered how it can be done,
to pick the one, who's gonna be my lover for life
my baby, be there to hold me through the night.
When it happens you can see it in his eyes,
they tell no lies, brighter than the sky in July
my baby, cooler than anyone I've known

The colour of blue,
reminds me of you
I've never seen grey, green, black
- you're true.
The colour of blue,
no other will do,
in my heart,
I only feel the colour of blue.

I say if you ever felt the way I do
Then lucky you, so never go for a less than a
perfect thing, seek and then hopefully you'll find.
There's a rhythm and a rhyme you've gotta find it,
Then you'll see, Cos baby we could go on all night
just dancing, doing it till the break of dawn.

The colour of blue,
reminds me of you
I've never seen grey, green, black
- you're true.
The colour of blue,
no other will do,
in my heart,
I only feel the colour of blue.

In the rainbow I can see,
colours of misbelief
There is only one for me
And it will forever be.

The colour of blue,
reminds me of you
I've never seen grey, green, black
- you're true.
The colour of blue,
no other will do,
in my heart,
I only feel the colour of blue.

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2008-12-02T07:35:00.002+08:00

刚才我在看我的博客是，发现到我很多月没有写了。。。那时我刚刚回到了墨尔本，刚开始上大学。谁知道，一转眼差不多一年就过去了，现在呢，我刚刚回到了新加坡，已经上完了大学第一年。。时间真的飞快的过去了。我这一年在墨尔本大学读书很愉快，遇到了不少的新朋友，也学了很多新的东西。。现在回来了，才发现真的很想念他们。。大家都回到了自己的国家去了，要等到明年才能够见到他们。幸好有一些打算到新加坡来玩儿，好让我早一点儿再见到他们(:

Ok, so enough of that.. Hehe.. It's been a really fantastic year.. (er er er.. well not exactly grades-wise, but definitely fantastic on the whole)! Now that I'm back in Singapore I'm melting.. Literally. So where shall I start - I watched three movies on the plane yesterday.. "The Ghost", "Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants", and "Sixty six".. Then I watched CSI Miami.. Hehe.. I reallyyyy enjoyed sisterhood of the travelling pants, it's a really nice show! And The Ghost was quite funny, but definitely not as good as the the travelling pants.. sixty six was just plain boring (or maybe I was sleepy).. Lets just say the latter ^^ But yup. I fell asleep within approximately the first what, 15 minutes? Then I woke up for the last 15 minutes. I got the gist of it, but didn't see what happened in between.. But the storyline seems pretty meaningful though.. I'm not gonna go into details, but after that show I was just pondering over some things.. and I realized that be it with siblings or parents, some think that if a person has another person to love, then there is less love for each.. It's kinda like.. 1/1 vs 1/2.. 1/2 is less because now the love has to be divided.. But that's so untrue.. I mean if you put things that way yea, for every new baby that is born, God will love each one of us less. It's not possible? Hehe. Ohwell just a random thought I thought about..

So yea.. THe plane ride in general wasn't too fantastic, but Thank God I got home safely and all that (: There are many more things I can imagine happening on a flight home, other than just minor discomforts.. Haha it's probably me just being picky by complaining about the plane ride though *grin*.. When I got home we went out for dinner with Aunty Amy, Uncle Steven and Charlene! That was yummy :D Bao Xing Chicken Rice!! *lick lips*.. Hehe I shall bring Baldwin and dear dear there when they come since jase likes to eat hainanese chicken rice (:

This morning............. I woke up................ with.......... a sore throat -.- and a really stuffed up nose.. Looks like the humidity isn't doing me much good at the moment.. My face is seriously oiled up as well - I feel as if I just swabbed it all over with a piece of cloth soaked in oil.. eew. And everytime I clean it it seems to just oil up all over again.. sheesh. Ahwell, shall just have to bear with it for now and pray that it gets better tomorrow. Alas! I have things to look forward to too! :D I'm going shoppingg this afternoon for work clothes! That should be fun. But I have heaps of stuff to do before that >.< Like get saline for my contacts. I don't have any here! Had to throw away my pair yesterday and open a new one today ): Luckily I'm wearing monthlys, not permanent ones. Aiite..

I"m gonna get going now, gonna hafta shower before I get to do the many things i have to do today!! Fun fun fun (: I like to be doing stuff.. sitting around at home starts to get at me after awhile =x.

Cheers!

Uni

2008-03-23T07:28:00.002+08:00

Alrightt! dang it's been 2 months and 3 days since I last blogged! whoop. No wonder my dad called and asked if my blog's been removed or something...

So, quick update on the going-ons around here, I'm back in melb (yes, for those who don't know I've been back for over a month now) and uni has started for me (: Mel U is a nice place actually, just gotta get used to the transition between coll and uni.. it's pretty different actually, so much for foundation studies being a bridging course. The Commerce Faculty is asian packed! No offence, i LOVE asians but honestly I feel liek I'm studying in Singapore or something sometimes. LOL. OHwell, managed to find me some Aussie friends the past few weeks here through clubs and through Orientation progs and tutes and stuff so that's not too bad..MOst of my tutes have twice the amount of Asians to Whites though. *growl* I hear it's the opposite in the Arts Fac. ohwell (:

Now it's holiday week! (yes yes I know, why so fast right) I didn't realize I had a holiday either =D so now I'm on a one-week break! heh. actually, 10 days because of the EAster HOlidays. Seriously, Easter is sucha big thing over here - everythign is closed. like even Safeway and Coles and stuff - honestly! (P.S They're the equivalents of NTUC and Cold Storage and Shop n Save etc in Sg) anyhoots been blading the past coupla days now my muscles are too tired to function properly =D

Alright actually what I wanted to do was to post this email I found ages ago online.. So here goes (:

ITEMS THAT YOU NEED IN LIFE :

1) TOOTH PICK
- to remind you to pick out the good qualities in others.

2) RUBBER BAND
- to remind you to be flexible as things might not always go
the way you want but somehow it will work out.

3) BAND-AID
- to remind you to heal hurt feelings, yours or someone else's.

4) PENCIL
- to remind you to count your blessings, writing them down everyday.

5) ERASER
- to remind you that everyone makes mistakes and it's OK.

6) CHEWING GUM (Not sure if you can do away with this since S'pore bans it. he hee)
- to remind you to stick with it and you can accomplish anything

7) CANDY KISS
- to remind you that everyone needs a kiss?? (perhaps a pat on the shoulder
will do the job) or a hug everyday.

8) TEA BAG
- to remind you to relax daily and reflect on all the blessings received
for the week.

I took some pics lately, of a choc cake and ondeh ondeh that i made! =D Will upload soon (probably up on Facebook too). So, sayonara for now, Happy and Blessed Easter! Remember to stop and thank God for sending his Son to die and rise again for our sins especially on this wonderful day! =D

I love you

2008-01-20T20:33:00.000+08:00

Haha..well first things first, HAPPY 6th MONTH ANNIVERSARY HONEY..I love you.. (:

Okay and now..I never did blog about that KL trip I said I'd blog about... ... heh..

Actually I think in those last 8 minutes I pretty much covered everything we did..The next morning i DID manage to get my dad's laptop to a starbucks to use the free internet (: BUt I was too lazy to blog cuz I was facebooking and chatting on MSN..hehe..The guy working at starbucks was so nice..I needde to have an account to use the internet actually, which required a malaysia IC (like singapore if you wanna use starbucks internet) so he let me use his account. Haha..Good customer service! Go all the way out =D. haha..

Well since I got back from Melbourne I've been super duper busy..I'm amazed myself =x..Haha..and my room is in an utter mess..Which i AM TRYING to clear up..Been shopping so much though.. =x.. haha.. should not spend money like that..haha..waiting for my CNY income now =p then can store in the bank and earn INTEREST! haha ..pitiful interest, actually.. but ohwell.

So exciting, CNY is coming! hehe (: Missed CNY wit my family last year ): but this year YHEY! =D but gor's not here ): He just flew off today..OEI i miss you already ): *sniffle*. haha nvm SHALL SEE YOU IN THE MIDDLE OF THE YEAR. Then can bully you again =D. *grin*.. okay i'm watching this show on tv called cellular.. qutie cool..hehe. blog again.

=D Happy CNY in advance advance advance! lol

KL!

2008-01-09T23:26:00.000+08:00

Hello! (:

I'm in KL typing this now! I have 8 minutes left of the internet soI have to hurry up..if not the bill will be like crazy =p. hahaha..

Dear (: thanks for the wonderfull day!! hehe. went to see the twin towers, then walk around, shop shop, eat lunch, watched a movie..(: just hung out..hehe..yea..and got a calendar as a present from dear's mommy ^^ hehe.

omg at night we went out to eat dinner..it was just supposed to be about 20 mins drive (cuz the drive back was only 15 mins or so) but we were caught in such a BAD jam that we were stuck there for almost 2 hours!! IN THE CAR T.T..it was awful. hahaa

In the end dad came up witha bright idea --> WE WALKED to the restaurant the last 200meters or so..haha..and we reached faster than the car. *grin*..

okay okay I gotta go my minutes are runnign out still have to round up some other stuff i'm doing (like facebooking). hehe..ciao! if i can find an internet to use in starbucks tmw i shall blog PROPERLY. (: free internet! haa. okok bye!

2008-01-05T01:54:00.000+08:00

Goodness I ought to be sleeping. Haha..but I simply HAVE to blog something. So here goes before I hit the sack. =p

Been going out so much nowadays, I feel like a vegabond!! (but dad, I still make the effort to come home for dinner okay! Just cuz YOU'RE home for dinner!!! haha.) =p haha! Well been running around a lot..Can't be bothered to upload my pics on my blog so GO TO FACEBOOK AND FIND IT IF YOU WANT TO SEE IT. lol. Maybe my next entry i might upload a few from the Christmas dinner at Aunty Lee Yong's. See my MOOD. haha..

Today went to walk walk and camwhore with Linying, Shengtao and Yuqian! OMg it's so good to see all you people again. I've been meeting up with tonnes and tonnes of people I haven't seen in ages..Ytd met Paul..who brought me to this yummy place to eat yam with ginko. yum. haha (: WAlked around till my feet are blistered from ym heels now ): hahaha..that's quite funny though. Everywhere's having sales now! BUt I don't know what to buy! lol i need skirts and shorts but I can't find nice ones..haha so when I do, I shall pounce on it. ^^

Anyway today the 4 of us officially crowned it RETARD DAY. lol. It's so awesome I haven't felt so retarded in my life in a looong time. haha.. you know what we did. My friend recommended us to go to Giraffe right (okok you gotta hear this its the most embarassing thing i've done in my life so far). I thought it'd be a cafe-ish place, so I told my friends lets go there have a cuppa coffee! When we went in it was around teatime so the guy told us "we're not serving food, only drinks" so we're like youknow, yea, that's cool that's cool. *proceeds in* when we flipped open the menu we FLIPPED. literally. haha..the drink list was so limited! I Mean (NON-ALCOHOLIC-DRINKS). LOl it was kinda like bar -_- and we were all underage. So in the end we felt too bad to just walk out after we'd just walked in (and to make it worse at that time the whole place was empty except for us). What did we do then? YES. We ordered ONE COKE. For THREE of us. (shengtao wasn't there yet). haha it was funny. Yuqian said "i'll have a coke" so the guy said "okay.." and turned to Linying and I. We looked at him and siad "na we're fine" so the guy looked at me and said "so you guys want a coke." I nodded. "three cokes?" I said "errr nupp 1 coke." and he ECHOED ME in disbelief (this was SO good LOL) "ONE coke?" I grinned like an idiot and said "yea one coke. one coke will do. thanks" and he gave us the "o.......kay..........." face.ohwell. Lateron when i paid the bill I made an effort to show i actually felt bad =p lol. it was quite embarassing. Both linying and yuqian DISAPPEARED while i was paying the bill. They were looking for pits to hide their faces in. I was left stranded there to wait for the guy to give me back my change. ALONE. GG GUYS. =p

After that we roamed around taking random pics and behaving like tourists..HA =p That's why I said it was retarded day..we took the most retarded pics you could think of, i can't even believe I did that manz. haha..Well, if you wanna see thsoe pics they're all on facebook (: STuff liek trying to EAT from a poster on the wall -_-. hahaha

And yes I do remember that in the last entry I said I'd blog the next day about carolling and dad's cell dinner, but no I didn't =p hehe. So short one..carolling was fun, not VERY successful but well managed to get the msg across I'd reckon (: I was made to play the guitar upon last minute notice but managed to scrape it through (: Thank God. hahaha =D..I guess it was a good chance for me to catch up with some of my cell people too (only 5 of us were there though, inclusive of myself). And Dad's cell dinner was awesome. haha Aunty Maureen makes superb turkey! (if I were with Hannah Ooi I'd say the turkey was simply orgasssmic. but lets pretend u never saw that and its censored ok? lol HANNAH I BET YOU'RE DROOLING WHEEEE!). haha.. It was SO nice (: and yummy! haha..and the ham too!! =D. *smacks lips* simply amazing. hehe..and yea the conversation was good, the carolling was good, everything was so good! (: And the DOORGIFTS WERE GOOD TOO =p hehe> THAnk for the Chocs Aunty maureen!! lala =D..

Kay I'm gonna get going then..it's 2.15am and I'm waiting for the files to transfer from Vivienne to me.. >< zzz. haha.. btw i restarted d countdown for another date (: hehe. 4 days! lala..Cheers =D Going out with TSK tmr! Whee. hahaa..CAM WHORE AGAIN. zomg. hahaa

Okay okay i'm really gone (: bye!

5th Month

2007-12-20T12:01:00.000+08:00

Alright the entry that I posted just now can't exactly be counted as a blog entry so. here's another one =p Didn't spend my day doing much..Hung out with Waimun most of the day, went to cut my hair a little... Then met rahrah for dinner together with Waimunnn..

Had a good time chatting with them..Hehe. Wai mun loves my dogs. After that I spend pretty much my whole night sorting out my album artwork on itunes, and finally I'm getting somewhere (Dear you should be proud of meee). kakaka. Arh my eyes are killing me, they're so irritated and itchy and tired and blablabla. ):

Was walking home at night and saw the moon..It's half full now (: Give it awhile more and it'll be nice and round..how awesome is that >.< I love looking at the full moon..And i was listening to this song called Dreaming Of You. I'll probably put it as my next blogsong (cuz I'll obviously change this one after Christmas). That song makes me think of..........stuff >.< *sniffles*. But it's a beautiful song, it's a pity the singer died so young of a car accident ): She had such a beautiful voice!!

Anyhoots, I had to bring my countdown to a halt ): cuz the days increased..*sniffle*

Okok I know the entry was really really short..But I wanna go finish up my artwork and wait for a phonecall. I'll blog tomorrow, i'd reckon (: Gonna go to church for carolling from 2-5pm, then have dinner with Dad's cell group! (haha fun bunch of people, honestly) Coolness. So yep (: I'm off then..

Lastly. Dear, happy 5th month (: It's been a great 5 months..Thanks so much for everythinggg..sorry i can't spend 6th month with u ): I'll try >.< I love you (and miss you lots)! (:

New Blogsong~

2007-12-19T20:44:00.000+08:00

Uploaded a new blog song for the season, and well. A song speaks a thousand words..
Merry Early Christmas bloggers! (:

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is...
Youuuuu

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There's just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I don't need to hang my stocking
There upon the fireplace
Santa Claus won't make me happy
With a toy on Christmas day
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you
You baby

I won't ask for much this Christmas
I don't even wish for snow
I'm just gonna keep on waiting
Underneath the mistletoe
I won't make a list and send it
To the North Pole for Saint Nick
I won't even stay awake to
Hear those magic reindeers click
'Cause I just want you here tonight
Holding on to me so tight
What more can I do
Baby all I want for Christmas is you
Ooh baby

All the lights are shining
So brightly everywhere
And the sound of children's
Laughter fills the air
And everyone is singing
I hear those sleigh bells ringing
Santa won't you bring me the one I really need
Won't you please bring my baby to me...

Oh I don't want a lot for Christmas
This is all I'm asking for
I just want to see my baby
Standing right outside my door
Oh I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Baby all I want for Christmas is...
You

All I want for Christmas is you... baby (repeat and fade)

Thanks for being such great company today Waimun..and Sarah too, it's so good to see both of you again >.< Off for now, I'll be back later

I miss you~

2007-12-19T01:25:00.000+08:00

I'm back to blog, because I can't sleep again ): Been keeping myself occupied lately, meeting up with old friends and all. I guess it's good, keeps my mind running so it won't run around. Arh, watched a lot of movies! Watched Enchanted with my cousin last week. I like that show, it's fun, and it's a fairytale..BUt i guess that's what makes it so unrealistic. Fairytales never come true, anyway...or do they?

Hahaha..well well, then after that I watched Alvin and the Chipmunks with MEIYI! Hehe. nice to see you again babe..haha..That movie was cute, quite typical and cliche but still, cute nonetheless. I like the idea of singing chipmunks, especially when they have such cute voices and adorable jumpers.

Then er..I watched Warlords with my parents! (Who have not been to cinema's in ages) hehe. It wasn't too bad I guess, just that a little hard to follow, and the totally-worth-drooling-over-takeshi had such monotonous lines -_-..He was literally repeating the same thing over and over. Hehe..THen in the end, everybody died. What an ending..

TOday! I watched Golden Compass! IT was pretty nice yea..Story a LITTLE BIT hard to follow but maybe that's cuz I missed the front part a little..but it was good (: Nice time catching up with Kenneth, shopped around for a little too but didn't buy anything. Don't really find much to buy nowadays, no idea why. Pretty strange huh =p

Anyway, I wanna watch Mr Magnoriums Emporium! Or something like htat, can't really remember how the spelling goes. Hehe..Will watch it someday (: ANy other nice movies to recommend? LEt me know. AND SARAH ANN CHUNG MEI ANN i miss you so call me! whee.

Alright that's all. i"m going back to count my sheep and see if I can sleep...ciao

The Joy Of Sharing

2007-12-15T22:45:00.000+08:00

Well well I'm blogging again! Looks like I'm getting back on track with my blogging again..It's being revived..slowly (hopefully this keeps up. haha..It might not!)Anyway.. Was praying very very hard about something last night and God really answered my prayers..thank God..He is so so so so good like He always is (:

Anyway..rather than sitting around doing nothing and letting wild thoughts run amok in my head which I really don't appreciate, I thought I'd clear my email. And I came across this..Rasmus sent it to me..And well I was pretty surprised..Cuz it was titled 7% and I was thinking "huh what" and I never really bothered to open it until now..It's probably been sitting there for a few months cuz I never had the time to really read it..But today when I finally cleared my mail and opened it, I was amazed to see how timely it was for me to open it only now..It's about the spirit of sharing and generosity, which so happens to fit in with the Christmas spirit..It's worth a read.

A holy man was having a conversation with the Lord one day and said, 'Lord, I would like to know what Heaven and Hell are like.'

The Lord led the holy man to two doors.

He opened one, and the holy man looked into a room with a large round table in the middle. In the center, on the table was a large pot of stew, which smelled so delicious it made the holy man's mouth water. Yet, the people sitting around the table were thin, sickly, and appeared famished. They were holding spoons with very long handles strapped to their arms. Each found they cou ld reach into the stew-pot and take a spoonful, but with the handle longer than their arms, they could not get the spoons close to their mouths. The holy man shuddered at the sight of their misery and suffering and the Lord said, 'You have seen Hell.'

He then opened the second door. The room was exactly as the first one, with the large round table and large pot of stew, again making the holy man's mouth water. The people were equipped with the same long-handled spoons strapped to their arms, but here the people were well nourished, plump, laughing and talking. The holy man said, 'I don't understand.'

'It is simple,' said the Lord, 'and requires but one skill. As you see, they have learned to feed each other, while the selfish think only of themselves.'

When Jesus died on the cross, he was thinking of you.

It is es timated 93% of recipients will not forward this email. If you are one of the 7% who will, forward it with the title '7%'. I am in that 7%, and will always share my spoon with you. Remember, God loves You, and so do we. =)

Okay I'm gone for now then..counting.. about 32 days or so..I wish he would hurry up and confirm the date he's coming so I countdown properly.. ><.. Haven't been talking mnuch to him really ):. ohwells. >< Haha

OH yes before I go last thing. SPECIALLY FOR YOU DAD, SINCE I KNOW YOU'RE AN AVID READER OF MY BLOG. A public apology for injuring your index finger by clipping it in the drawer which was purely and accident!! FORGIVE MEE?? (: hehe

Alright, tha'ts really all for now..I'm feeling in a sianded mood now. hah. time for bed then, ciaoo..

Results are out!

2007-12-14T10:31:00.000+08:00

Well well, what have we here... Results are now officially out..I can imagine all the Trinitarians in all their various home countries all over the world just yesterday, having butterflies in their stomach and intense mixed emotions. Some people didn't dare to check their reports, some rushed eagerly to...

As for myself, I'm now on my way to Melbourne Uni! Just waiting for the offer letter to come in the mail and that'll settle the rest. It's all good. The past few days have been a mixture of highs and lows. Had a very good time catching up with old friends, close and also acquaintances, young and not-so-young. Spent quite a fair bit of time with my mummy as well in the day, and dinners with both my parents. Gets a bit quiet at night though, sometimes, too quiet. Anyhoots, had supper with Sam (Loh) and Shawn (Loh) last night..That kept my night busy. Went to this awesome prata place..It's probably one of the nicest I've tried in Singapore..[[yes yes, altho Jason argues that Malaysia has a wider range..well w-h-a-t-e-v-e-r]] haha. It's some place in AMK don't really know what it's called..It has like egg and mushroom prata, ice cream prata, strawberry prata, banana prata, chocolate prata and lots more other innovative stuff..BUT J brought me to this place in Melb tho', where they have like..MILO prata. haha..Run by indians so it was prettttyyyy authentic.

Played tenis this morning, good to get my ass out in the sun and some exercise again. But considering Singapore's humidity and heat, which makes me sweat even if I"m not moving at all, you can imagine how much I sweat this morning. Oh my gosh. I feel so drained of water now. Haha..and salt. =p Ahwell.

Alright I'll keep this short cuz I'm not really in the mood for blogging, but blogging more for the sake of it. Counting down is a good way to pass the days...and yep. that leaves about 34 more days approx. AND, Christmas is coming in about 11 days..Coolness (: Put up the Christmas tree, it's beautiful. I'll attach some pictures soon, but my camera's a little screwed so you might see some strange faint lines across d pics.. Prob in the next post yeh. Ciao for now.

Home for Christmas

2007-12-08T09:19:00.000+08:00

Well well..I think this will be a relatively long post as compared to the past few..Guess who's back for Christmas? (: Haha..It's good to be back, good to see familiar roads, familiar faces, good to see my loved ones again... It's been such a fast year, 2007 has gone by in a flash and poof we're moving on to 2008, but not before the celebration of the birthday of Jesus Christ -- yes, Christmas! I've always looked forward to Christmas, the opening of presents, the sharing of the love and the joy, and knowing that another marvellous year has passed and one more is to come. But it's a great pity that some of the very important people in my life won't be here to share the joy of Christmas with me >< Some of the treasured friendships I've made in the past year in 2007, and now the year has past everyone's gone back to their respective homes/countries. HANNAH OOI. You ought to be in Singpaore for Christmas!! Gee ): ..

Christmas -- love is in the air..but my love is in Australia right now ):. Sniffles..another approx. 39 days before I get to see him again, and it's agonna be a long 39 days..well. it'll come, it'll come. (: Just a few days back I was thinking to myself... What is Christmas all about? Why do people all over the world celebrate it? It's the big birthday celebration of Jesus Christ our Saviour, but it has been so commercialized and now seems like Christmas is all just about Santa Claus and presents. How many people wish Jesus happy birthday and thank God for sending his one and only son down just to die for our sins? How many people take time to truly appreciate everything God has done in the year? Christmas is also about love, between us and God, us and people, us and our family. How many of us take Christmas to sincerely tell those who matter that we love them and what we love about them? Or is Christmas really just about waking up to rip open presents to have a smile on your face for a short while..? What about telling someone you love this Christmas how much they mean to you and why...? That would leave a smile on their face for the rest of the day! Anyway, found this on a website..

http://www.llerrah.com/truemeaningofchristmas.htm

Just a week before Christmas I had a visitor. This is how it happened. I just finished the household chores for the night and was preparing to go to bed, when I heard a noise in the front of the house. I opened the door to the front room and to my surprise, Santa himself stepped out next to the fireplace.

"What are you doing?" I started to ask. The words choked up in my throat and I saw he had tears in his eyes. His usual jolly manner was gone. Gone was the eager, boisterous soul we all know. He then answered me with a simple statement . . .

"TEACH THE CHILDREN!" I was puzzled. What did he mean? He anticipated my question and with one quick movement brought forth a miniature toy bag from behind the tree. As I stood bewildered, Santa said, "Teach the children!

Teach them the old meaning of Christmas. The meaning that now-a-days Christmas has forgotten. "Santa then reached in his bag and pulled out a FIR TREE and placed it before the mantle. "Teach the children that the pure green color of the stately fir tree remains green all year round, depicting the everlasting hope of mankind, all the needles point heavenward, making it a symbol of man's thoughts turning toward heaven."

He again reached into his bag and pulled out a brilliant STAR. "Teach the children that the star was the heavenly sign of promises long ago. God promised a Savior for the world, and the star was the sign of fulfillment of His promise."

He then reached into his bag and pulled out a CANDLE. "Teach the children that the candle symbolizes that Christ is the light of the world, and when we see this great light we are reminded of He who displaces the darkness."

Once again he reached into his bag and removed a WREATH and placed it on the tree. "Teach the children that the wreath symbolizes the real nature of love. Real love never ceases. Love is one continuous round of affection."

He then pulled from his bag an ORNAMENT of himself. "Teach the children that I, Santa Claus, symbolize the generosity and good will we feel during the month of December."

He then brought out a HOLLY LEAF. "Teach the children that the holly plant represents immortality. It represents the crown of thorns worn by our Savior. The red holly berries represent the blood shed by Him.

Next he pulled from his bag a GIFT and said, "Teach the children that God so loved the world that he gave his begotten son." Thanks be to God for his unspeakable gift.

Santa then reached in his bag and pulled out a CANDY CANE and hung it on the tree. "Teach the children that the candy cane represents the shepherds' crook. The crook on the staff helps to bring back strayed sheep to the flock. The candy cane is the symbol that we are our brother's keeper."

He reached in again and pulled out an ANGEL. "Teach the children that it was the angels that heralded in the glorious news of the Savior's birth. The angels sang Glory to God in the highest, on earth peace and good will toward men."

Suddenly I heard a soft twinkling sound, and from his bag he pulled out a BELL,. "Teach the children that as the lost sheep are found by the sound of the bell, it should ring mankind to the fold. The bell symbolizes guidance and return.

Santa looked back and was pleased. He looked back at me and I saw that the twinkle was back in his eyes. He said, "Remember, teach the children the true meaning of Christmas and do not put me in the center, for I am but a humble servant of the One that is, and I bow down to worship him, our LORD, our GOD."

It's good right. there are so many things we forget about Christmas..Put the attention of Christmas on the right person... (:

2007-11-26T15:30:00.000+08:00

Found this is one of my really really old emails..I think it's really good (: Have a read!

I have in my hands two boxes,
Which God gave me to hold.
He said, "Put all your sorrows in the black box,
And all your joys in the gold."

I heeded His words, and in the two boxes,
Both my joys and sorrows I stored,
But though the gold became heavier each day,
The black was as light as before.

With curiosity, I opened the black,
I wanted to find out why,
And I saw, in the base of the box, a hole,
Which my sorrows had fallen out by.

I showed the hole to God, and mused,
"I wonder where my sorrows could be!"
He smiled a gentle smile and said,
"My child, they're all here with me."

I asked God, why He gave me the boxes,
Why the gold and the black with the hole?
"My child, the gold is for you to count your blessings,
The black is for you to let go."

For the updates, (which are long overdue seeing that my last post was 4 months ago..) i'm right smack in the middle of the exams (which explains why this is gonna be short)..not really right smack la, one last paper on wednesday. I'll be back in Singapore soon! Thinking of giving tuition for 2 months..pri sch or lower sec..haha.. like intensive hol prep for year 08..anybody know anybody who wans? (:

and i cut my finger ):. boo. haha..ohwell careless me. whatever..its nicely bao-ed up now..*chuckle*. Going back go sg soon!! Hot hot weather again >< owells. hahaha (: At least can see my frens and family again ^^

ciaooo!

2007-10-22T23:35:00.000+08:00

Woww (: Are you game was just fantastic! It was really really really good, and I really enjoyed the message that night. THere was this analogy that Pastor Matt used and I never thought about it that way. Everything is a choice right, becuase God loves us too much to force us into anything even if it IS for our betterment. So many people question why a loving God would send anybody to hell. God DOESN'T send anybody to hell. This is how Pastor Matt put it. Imagine you're in a game show and you've got to the last round..All yoru other fellow contestants have already been eliminated and it's only you left..Now you're seated before three doors and you have to choose one. Think about it..behind these three doors are one fake prize, one empty door and one grand prize. How would you know which to choose? Imagine, how nice it would be if someone came up to you and told you they knew which door you should choose? If they could say "choose this door" and you opened it and it was the grand prize! Just imagine. Yeah..Basically the grand prize is christianty and the road to eternal life..ANd the person who's telling you which door to open is Jesus Christ. Listen to that calm little voice in your heart calling you to that door and you'l know when it's the Father calling you to that door. And like..you may ask "why should I trust Him, what if He's wrong?" well think about it what have you to lose? If you don't choose any of the doors you'll be left there in torment, thinking and thinking (hell)...If you choose the wrong door you either get nothing or you get a fake prize..but you won't have to face eternal condemnation. God doesn't send anybody to hell. HE gives us a choice. And He guides us to the right door, but its' up to us whether to listen to the insider info and choose the right door, or to stay there and not choose anything. (:

Woa. that was really wordy (: but I do thnk it makes a lot of sense..I hope hwen I typed all that out I made sense too..Cuz i'm kinda sleepy. ANyway, got a long week ahead, an accounting essay due tomorrow and my oral presentation exam for English on Thursday! Gotta get cracking and print my slides and stuff already (: I'm off to bed first it's late (: love you all lovelies! God Bless!

Hapiness is a Journey

2007-10-16T22:32:00.000+08:00

Got this off the net somewhere, thought it was quite meaningful. Wont' elaborate cuz I don't actually ahve the time but i'll just type it out..

Happiness is a journey, not a destination...

For a long time it seemed to me that life was about to begin -- real life

But there was always some obstacle in the way

Something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business,

time still to be served, adebt to be paid.

At least it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life.

This perspective has helped me to see that there is no way to happiness.

Happiness is the way, so treasure every moment you have and remember that time waits for no one.
-Souza

Some people might have read this before, and it's really worth a bit of thought (: Anyhoots, have a great day!

P.S ARE YOU GAME coming up! Friday night 715pm, Melbourne High (South Yarra Station)!!! LEt me know if you wanna go!! I honestly encourage u guyz not to miss it cuz it's just gonna be aweesome! There'll be perfomances and games too! (= yay! hehe..All those already going, lets continue to keep in prayer and ask God to use us to touch lives in all the ways we never thought we could!! Come prayed up and prepared to see God move (: awesome!

Quick update

2007-10-15T21:24:00.000+08:00
I'm really successful in breeding mosquitoes in my blog, it seems. Getting better and better at it ><

Anyway, just wanna do a quickie update because I actually want to go and sleep now but Jan is using the toilet (bathing) so I'm waiting for her to be done so I can go and wash up..*yawn*.

Yup. So, nothing really new's been going on in my life actually..Hmm, been pretty busy cuz the first week of school just passed, but the two weeks of holiday before that were good! (: Mum and Dad came over in the first week, had a really enjoyable time while they were here. Got abit too used to having them around again, then when they left I felt a lil lonely ): Ah but it's all cool, school starting and everything keeps me busy and loving melb (: heh. The weather's getting warmer, cuz spring's setting in already!

Got back last term exam results, quite satisfied with my results actually!
English --> 18.75/20
Lit --> 19.25/20
Drama --> 9/10
Math --> 48.5/50
Econs --> 28/40

Looks like the only thing I really really have to PUSH for is my ECONS! ugh ugh ugh. haha..but last term there wasn't any accounting paper..this term we'll have..oh gosh ><
haha. There are so many things due in this term! That's why suddenly i've been too busy to blog! (okay it wasn't really very sudden..hven't been blogging for soo long. but ohwells)

Anyhoots, kinda stepping up in church leadership as well, a lot of new challenges coming up this term both spiritually, in terms of school work, and in terms of relationships between friends and others..yep (: But it's all cool, God is good and God has my life in His hands!

Okay I predict Jan's gonna come out really soon. I shall go get ready to wash up and go sleep (: Now people, stop complaining that I don't ever update -- I JUST DID! teehee (:

Cheers to all, God Bless and have an awesome week ahead!

Let God be strong in our weakness! Let the Holy Spirit work in us and through us such that people can see and sense the difference of having Jesus in our lives (: -wink- lovies!

Follow your heart because God speaks to your heart

2007-10-01T18:22:00.000+08:00
I got this in my email sometime back, and I think it's really worth a read..

Have you ever felt the urge to pray for someone and then just put it on a list and said, I'll pray for them later?'

Or has anyone ever called you and said, 'I need you to pray for me, I have this need?'

Read the following story that was sent to me and may it change the way that you may think about prayer and also the way you pray. You will be blessed by this.

A missionary on furlough told this true story while visiting his home church in Michigan.

'While serving at a small field hospital in Africa, every two weeks I traveled by bicycle through the jungle to a nearby city for supplies. This was a journey of two days and required camping overnight at the halfway point.
On one of these journeys, I arrived in the city where I planned to collect money from a bank, purchase medicine, and supplies,and then begin my two-day journey back to the field hospital.
Upon arrival in the city, I observed two men fighting, one of whom had been seriously injured. I treated him for his injuries and at the same time talked to him about the Lord.
I then traveled two days, camping overnight, and arrived home without incident.

Two weeks later I repeated my journey. Upon arriving in the city, I was approached by the young man I had treated. He told me that he had known I carried money and medicines. He said, 'Some friends and I followed you into the jungle, knowing you
would camp overnight. We planned to kill you and take your money and drugs.
But just as we were about to move into your camp, we saw that you were surrounded by 26 armed guards.

At this, I laughed and said that I was certainly all alone in that jungle campsite.

The young man pressed the point, however, and said, 'No, sir, I was not the only person to see the guards, my friends also saw them, and we all counted them. It was because of those guards that we were afraid and left you alone.'
At this point in the sermon, one of the men in the congregation jumped to his feet and interrupted the missionary and asked if he could tell him the exact day this happened.
The missionary told the congregation the date, and the man who interrupted told him this story:

'On the night of your incident in Africa, it was morning here and I was preparing to go play golf. I was about to putt when I felt the urge to pray for you. In fact, the urging of the Lord was so strong, I called men in this church to meet with me here in the sanctuary to pray for you. Would all of those men who met with me on that day stand up?' The men who had met together to pray that day stood up. The missionary
wasn't concerned with who they were, he was too busy counting how many
men he saw.

There were 26.
This story is an incredible example of how the Spirit of the Lord moves in mysterious ways. If you ever hear such prodding, go along with it.

Nothing is ever hurt by prayer except the gates of hell.
If we all take it to heart, we can turn this world toward God once
again. As the above true story clearly illustrates, 'with God all
things are possible'.

More importantly, how God hears and answers the prayers of the faithful.

Always give God thanks for the beautiful gift of your faith, for the powerful gift of prayer, and for the many miracles He works in your own daily life... Who says God does not work in mysterious ways

I asked the Lord to bless you as I prayed for you today. To guide you
and protect you as you go along your way. His love is always with you,
His promises are true, and when we give Him our cares you know He will
see us through.

So when the road you're traveling on seems difficult at best, Just
remember I'm here praying, and God will do the rest.

Pass this on to those whom you want God to bless.

Well yep so that's the email..I urge my brothers n sisters in Christ to follow your heart when God speaks to you or promts you because you never know how impactful your prayer really is. Even if you don't see the results of it immediately, pray if you feel prompted to because prayer is powerful and God always always answers prayers (: Cheers!

P.S I know my blog has been dead for agessss.. sorryyyyy!!!! hahahhahahaha

new blog song (:

2007-07-22T20:42:00.000+08:00
Hey people!

Sorry haven't blogged in so long..today we had a guest speaker in church, Pastor Rick Shelton (And Liting keeps mistaking it for Ritz Carlton, no offence).. His message was awesome (: God just uses people so greatly, it amazes me. Glory be to God in the highest!

Will blog about what I learnt from it in the next few days (: For now, I just wanted to say: NEW BLOG SONG! (: Whee (okay I'm sure you all can hear la).. It's from Little Mermaid..! Doncha just lurveee disney songs..(Even if you don't, I do) hehehe.. Will post the lyrics below.. I gotta get back to my econs tutorial sheets before my dear Vandana (my tutor) comes after me tomorrow during tutorial! Cheers..

Kiss the Girl - Peter Andre
There you see her
Sitting there across the way
She don’t got a lot to say
But there’s something about her
And you don’t know why
But you’re dying to try
You wanna kiss the girl

Yes, you want her
Look at her, you know you do
It’s possible she wants you, too
There is one way to ask her
It don’t take a word
Not a single word
Go on and kiss the girl

Sing with me now
Sha-la-la-la-la-la
My, oh, my
Look at the boy too shy
He ain’t gonna kiss the girl
Sha-la-la-la-la-la
Ain’t that sad
Ain’t it shame, too bad
You gonna miss the girl

Now’s your moment
Floating in a blue lagoon
Boy, you better do it soon
No time will be better
She don’t say a word
And she won’t say a word
Until you kiss the girl

Sha-la-la-la-la-la
Don’t be scared
You got the mood prepared
Go on and kiss the girl
Sha-la-la-la-la-la
Don’t stop now
Don’t try to hide it how
You wanna kiss the girl
Sha-la-la-la-la-la
Float along
Listen to the song
The song say kiss the girl
Sha-la-la-la-la-la
Music play
Do what the music say
You wanna kiss the girl

You’ve got to kiss the girl
Why don’t you kiss the girl
You gotta kiss the girl
Go on and kiss the girl

2007-07-15T08:39:00.000+08:00
Isaiah 32:18
My people will dwell in a peaceful habitation, in secure dwellings, and in quiet resting places.

It's sabbath day today! Rest day (: yayy. Hehe..(although I've been like resting for the past two weeks -.-) Pretty much everyone's back in Palmerston Block 4 already!! It's noisy again! Whee~ Gwen is happy. ^^ Yesterday went to the airport with Harris and Jason to pick up On, we tried to give him a surprised but JASON GAVE US AWAY (puts blame entirely on Jason). teehee. But I think we still managed to surprise On a weeEeee bit. (i hope)

Now I'm going to complete my entry on the HK trip (which i was supposed to have done a million lightyears ago). hehe..
So the day after we went to the peak..........

This is us (Pirated Charlies Angels) camwhoring when my Dad was in one of the shops trying on a suit..

You can see how SIAN my brother looks.. He has the face which says "ohmygosh. I canNOT believe they are doing this to me....." Hehe. After that we went to times square to jalan jalan and take neoprints! I only took a pic of the neos of my bro and I though, cuz there were too many of the three of us..
So this is times square...

And these are the neos! (:

And this.. erm.. this is the pic of my neos and the stuff I bought in less than a day (: [[a.k.a evidence of my shopping..heh]]

Basically that was all for that day, we just spent the rest of the day around that area... The next day, we went over to Tsim Sha tsui (I have NO idea hwo you spell it, but if you read it out that way it probably sounds correct ^^) We took the Star Ferry over! Heh..
In the morning before we set off we had brunch at this wanton mee place.. Yummy (= As you can see, our family is super colour-coordinated! HAHA.

Then this is the ifs building..and us camwhoring as we make our way to the dock where we're supposed to get on the ferry (:

Crossing the bridge where I took the pic of the ifs from...

At the terminal while waiting for my parents to use the washroom ^^ The first pic is kinda dark though..Bad lighting and we didn't use flash..=p

View from the ferry..

Mum and I on the ferry!! haha, and then me camwhoring on the ferry (cuz there's jsut THAT many pics you can take of the same scenery, no?)

Ohhh you know, I'm SO fascinated by their Pizza Hut there!!! The layout and stuff looks so high-class n upmkt that it looks like ... Crystal Jade or sth >< Check it out.. THIS is pizza hut man......

Last thing I'm gonna blog about HK... Remember how I was talking about this place we had Mango Dessert? YEA! It's a franchise, so we found ALOT more along the way as we shopped around the next few days, and yes, we did eat there again! YiPpee.. It's so yummyy and seriously, the mangoes are deliciously sweet. Decadence to the highest degree... *floats around in glee* HEY IT RHYMES. okay whatever nevermind *sticks out tongue*.

Doesn't it look heavenly? haha nice and yellow. Okay that didn't make sense but whateverrr (: Sometime soon I'll post up the pics I took in Singapore! Met up with quite a lot of good friends..Camwhored with Ryan Nick and my darling bettyboops (Amanda)!! For now, I'm gonna zip down to safeway to replenish stock of fruits, juice and milk..My cupboard is sparse and my fridge empty, how depressing.

I'm off now! God Bless! Cheerios! Toodles! Adieu! Sayonara! Mayonnaise! okay random..I just felt like it. Byebye!

Jesus.. I love you!

2007-07-12T01:46:00.000+08:00
you know I actually logged off and put my lappie away already.. But after I did that I was praying over some stuff, and taking Yan's advice and telling God just how much I love Him, and this hit me.. it hit me so hard that I had to come online and blog about it. I duno how relevant this is to you people out there or how often it actually happens or if it's just me, but I realized that everyday when I pray I always thank God for this thank God for that, praise You for this and that, and pray for this and that. One thing I don't remember telling Him in my prayers is how much I love Him! I mean, even something as basic as that!

I started thinking about how I say "I love you" so often.. to my close friends, to my family, to my brothers and sisters in Christ. "love ya" ; "missing ya" etcetera, then I asked myself: How often do I tell God "I love you" or "I miss you"? I think of how many times I say I love you to my dad! My father on earth... How much more should I tell my Jesus how much I love him? Not as if my daddy here doesn't already know I love him, but still, everyday I tell him I love him. What more God? I'm sure God knows how much I love Him -- He probably knows how much I love Him even better than I do! That shouldn't stop me from telling Him how much I love Him! It's just this sudden revelation that hit me.

Then I also thought about how many times I told my ex "I love you".. Althoguh I never once did put any of them before my Heavenly Father, it startled me to realize how much more I told them "I love you" than I did to God! Wow. It's not that I say those three words flippantly, even though I say them a lot I do mean it everytime I say it. All the more I should tell God I love you!

so yes! JESUS I LOVE YOU! GOD I LOVE YOU! ABBA FATHER I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.. and just now this song came to my head..I can't find the mp3 so I'll just type out the lyrics. If someone out there has the music send it to me alright (:

Lovely, are your dwelling places
Thirsty, I come after You
Jesus, my joy, my reward
Your love's restoring my soul
Now I'm Yours and You are mine
And from my heart a song will rise

I love you, I love you, I love you
I love you, I love you, I love you
I love you, I love you, I love you
And my heart will follow wholly after you.

It's been so long I last sang this song, but it really says so much. I love you Daddy!This song is just so true, and I just wanna sing it to Jesus (: I love you! I love you!

You know there was once this lil girl whose father wondered, "If I weren't doing the job I am, if I weren't as successful, if I weren't able to send my child overseas, would she still love me?". He asked her and she said "Daddy..I love you for who you are and not what you've done. Of course I am thankful and appreciative that you can afford to let the family live very comfortably, but even if you weren't, I love you for who you are." Lets have the same attitude and love (and even greater) for God..Unconditional love! Not only because he answers our prayers and blesses us, but because He is who He is. Amen? (:

I better log off now (: I've said whatever I felt I needed to! Don't forget to tell Jesus once more you love Him! ^^ I'll never get tired of someone telling me I'm loved, so never feel as if you've said it enough times, cuz there's never an "enough" (=

Put God first

2007-07-12T00:29:00.000+08:00
I really really would love to finish up that blog about the HK trip but it's gonna take too long to wait for the pics to upload >< so probably one of hte days when I'm back in Aussie I'll complete that.

For now, I just wanna post this webby..

CLICK HERE

Do hope you guys will go take a read if you have time.. It's really inspiring, and after reading it do think about it (: I learnt a lot from it. Thanks Yan for showing me this webby!! It made my past two seemingly-crappy-days heaps better. I love you Jesus! My first love, and my greatest love.

Anyway at the rate I"m eating back in Singapore I"m gonna be rolling back into the melbourne airport! My dad says i've turned into a basketball >< And Ryan (Goh) calls me a roly poly. So yeah. And its not my fault I did actually wanna hit the gym today!! But i sprained my ankle -.- yes yes, I know I'm pro. Lost count of how many times i've done that alr, geez..

Gonna watch transformers tomorrow! Friday flying off alr! Time passes at the speed of lightning man.. 2 weeks already! i'm going back in two days! wow. ^^ Okok I shant blog any longer, although I have soooooooo much to say. (: Cheers and take care! God Bless!!

HONGKONG!

2007-07-06T22:17:00.000+08:00
First I wanna thank my wonderful brother for letting me use his laptop AND the internet.. (HKD 40 an hour) but that’s actually about SGD8.. so yep it’s quite okay. But THANKS KOR! I’m getting half an hour, he’s getting the other half an hour, so yup I’m actually typing this entry on Microsoft Word first and then copying and pasting it into my blog later to save time (:

I’ll blog about my HK trip since it’s the most recent (I mean, I’m still in HK!). So, our shopping (I’m sure we all relate HK to shopping =p) actually started in the Singapore airport! Heh. Can’t help it, too impatient, must start early. HEHE. Okay actually it’s because our 11am flight got delayed to 1145 so we were looking for things to do, and I was looking for a new fragrance anyway. Getting it in the airport means it’s duty free! No GST out! (: This time we went to the DBS lounge – everything was superbly-nice there, like the chairs, the service, the computers (they were apple!) and everything!! Except the food ): It wasn’t too good >< I think the First Class lounge has a wider and better variety of food, so you can guess what we did after leaving the DBS lounge and learning that our flight was delayed. YES! We chionggged back to the First Class lounge cuz daddy was hungry (: Yummy.

At least the waiting for the flight paid off, not only did we get to eat more food, we also got on the new plane! Ohmygosh! Seriously, check out the Krisworld screen (:

It’s so big!!!!!! *drools* and the seats were big too, it was really awesome-ness (yes, I just invented that word). When we walked past the First Class seats I almost fainted. There’s SO much space in each individual cubicle it’s like you could open a office table there!!!!! (I am not exaggerating, I actually we get less space to ourselves in a classroom than sitting in First class.) On top of that, their Krisworld screen is so big it’s almost like a mini theatre to yourself >< *continues drooling*

On the plane I finished watching “Happy Birthday” which I was actually halfway through from the flight back from Melbourne. Honestly, the only reason I’m watching it is because Louis Khoo acted in it! Admittedly, he looked kinda geeky in this show, BUT HE’S STILL CUTE (: (no, I’m not drooling) hehe.. Another show I watched was “Just Follow Law”. It’s a Singaporean production that my brother does not want to watch, but I have to say although the acting is relatively mediocre, the storyline, if you think deeper into it, is very good. I love the meaning it sends across and it really makes you think about quite a lot of things like what is important to you in life, and it reminds you to treasure those around you and not take people for granted. Besides that, it sets you thinking on whether you really have to be so anal about following rules all the time instead of being open and more versatile. Well enough about the show, although I do encourage pple to watch it. (:

The weather here is just like Singapore – once we stepped off the plane the hot air hit us :s Kor was like “somebody tell me, did we even leave Singapore?” waaa. *melts into a puddle* Can’t wait to get back to Melbourne winter (then again I think I’ll be complaining that it’s too cold. Hmm) We made our way to the hotel to check in and put down our stuff and went on our way shopping! Here are some pics of d hotel…

left side my bed, right side kor’s bed

our view outside is actually quite pretty (: and that’s the desk I’m typing on now..

our tv and my handbag..

the toilet door has this nice long mirror outside.. I LIKE! (: Good for cam-whoring,
as displayed here

BATHTUB! Wheeee~ You know what? They even have a cute rubber ducky for you to play with! How awesome is that???

Mum getting comfyyyy (: so cute.

that’s the Conrad bear they gave us together with the tea set…

and my teddy (he’s called “bear-bear”.. my bro named him) making friends with the Conrad bear.. Who wants to help me name my Conrad bear??]]

MANGO AND ZARA HERE ARE HAVING GREAT SALES! And when I say sales right, I don’t mean Singapore 5% kinda “great sale”.. I’m talking 50%-70% off!! REALLY! I went crazy. Haha.. Man I hardly ever ever see anything nice from MNG and Zara that are less than 50SGD! Hehehehe I was being a vainpot in the changing room, so here are some of the nice clothes..and they’re all around 50 or less!! Haha omg I was totally giving in to temptation.

guess who picked out this top? MY MUM. Haha funky yah! She has good taste, actually..

She picked the outer layer as well (: goes well rite!! Hehe.. my mum rocks my socks (no, more than my socks)

My bro says this is clubbing wear..Well, mum picked it too..but I didn’t buy this top, only the other two on top

Actually I kinda like this top, but I didn’t buy that day, and yesterday when I went back to try and find it it was gone ): *sob* Ohwell………………………….

I tried other tops that I didn’t take pics of, like a green spag-strap top and a purple jumper which I bought (: Nice! Hehe..Those were all in Mango..I bought a REALLY warm jacket in Zara, it’s RED, my fav colour!! It’s like 700HKD (about 140SGD) which is super cheap for a ZARA jacket which looks so nice and is so warm!!!!! *Grins* OMG you can’t imagine how happy I am from all the shopping la. LOL. That means I shouldn’t be shopping for the rest of the year, I’d reckon…

After all that strenuous (oh..so poor thing 0=p) shopping we had dinner at a restaurant called Zen. It is YUMMY. (as you will see, this whole trip is like.. shop eat shop eat shop eat shop eat) Then we headed down to this place called the ladies market (nu ren jie) for abit more shopping and dessert! I had this one called “glutinous rice balls with mango juice and extra mango jelly” which actually comes with a scoop of mango sorbet too! Didn't take a pic of it, but I will if we go there again in the next coupla days (:

So all this was on the 3rd.. Now for yesterday, the 4th. I think this blog entry is getting kinda long so I’m just gonna try to type less, sum it all up in a nutshell more, and upload more pics instead (: We met Hannah and her family today! A big shoutout to thank you guys for being so superbly hospitable and friendly! Thanks for lunch too! Lunch was at a dimsum place, I forgot the name of it. But here are some pics we took at lunch… and trust me, it’s highly likely only one-tenth of the pics Hannah and I took. (yes the camwhore queens who are.. too-hot-for-you!) okay that was random. But anyway.

weee are (as you can see) satisfied with lunch! Yummyum

muacks muacks to my wife! (don’t ask me why I’m the husband. I guess I’m more errr manly..

really, I can’t figure out what Joshua (hannah’s brother) is doing. But I recognize that amused look on my brother’s face..

Hannah tried to take a pic as we were walking to the toilet but somehow or other she tripped and her head hit my head and voila.

Yes, pretty toilet isn’t it? YES, WE DO CAMWHORE IN THE TOILET. Weird as it seems. Ah, told you we were cam-whore queens :S

random pics after lunch, waiting for the parents to settle the bill (:

Can you see?? We’re actually doing “Wow Wow” (our mouth is the “o”, I don’t think you’re THAT slow 0=p)

Hannah’s mum being very very hospitable and trying to feed my mum by putting foooood in her bowl..

The parents having fun in discussion. >.<

Dinner was delectable too! ^^ Only problem was one of the dishes had peanuts and I had to suffer for a bit, but it’s all cool, I’m fine, alive and kicking (: Just that had sexaeee puffy lips for awhile so I was hiding in the toilet, and also cuz abit of breathing probs.

the chicken looks cute right! Beheaded. =p (morbiddd)

THESE EGG TARTS, OH MY GOSH, THESE EGG TARTS are SOOO yummy! YUMMY!

and something shocking we found out over dinner  Hannah can TOUCH HER NOSE WITH HER TONGUE! REALLY! My parents were laughing so hard though =p]]

After dinner, we went to the peak!! It was soooo beautiful (: There were 2 people I really wished could be there with meeee.. but ohwell >< Nevermind there’s always another chance for us to come (:

This guy (ex prime minister I think) looks so real right! He’s a wax figure. =p I saw Jackie Chan wax figure too.. It was scarily real… I can understand why some people are afraid of wax museums now, it’s the first time I see wax figures and it’s so creeeeepy.

The train we took up to the peak (: Looks so old and quaint right?

It’s actually wayyyy more beautiful than this, but no way that beauty can be captured on camera.. It’s just breathtaking!! I love it (: If only we could see the moon up in the sky too >< It was horrible cloudy though.

Family pics!

Did some serious shopping in the day time too (: Bought mostly accessories and souvenirs though.. Got I think almost 3 pairs of earrings…

FINALLY! 5th Jul! Haha. Talk about serious shopping, this one was shopping MADNESS. And I mean it. MADNESS >< Bought SOOOO much stuff! Branded, non-branded, really really WOW. I am SO extremely elated that I don’t even know what’s the word to use to describe it. *grins from ear to ear* Met up with Hannah, mi darlinnn.. She joined us in our shopping spree. I bought a new pair of shoes, so many tops, two handbags, a wallet, zomigosh. (: Took a lot of pics with Hannah today but too many to post up so I won’t. I’m only gonna post up pics of FOOOD (so maybe Harris will see it and start drooling *evil grin*) okay okay I’m kidding Harris, but TOO BAD I get to eat and you don’t! (I’m seriously putting on weight though.. gotta go back to sg and hit the gym..) So here’s our TEATIME-BUFFET at a café called “Cova”. The pastries and cakes there are super-duper! The best part : it was a BUFFET! BUFFET!!!!! *gorges self*

my skinny cappuccino looks so pretty (:

that’s kor’s food (starting from the furthest), hannahs, then mine.

kor kor’s food

my food – VANISHED (: into my stomach. Hehehhe. Converting into fats :s oh dear. I probably put on a milllion and one kilos this trip >< ]]

anywayyy much as i'd liek to blog somemore, no more internet time and my pics cant upload. so TMR! when i go back to sg (: yay! Love you peeps, God Bless and take care!! Those who read this b4 my flight tmw morning (i'm landing abt 2pm), pray for journey mercy and God's hand to be holdin the plane alright! Thanks!!

Home hottt home

2007-07-03T09:45:00.000+08:00
I'M HOME! Okay actually i've been home since Sunday evening.. this is just an outdated entry.. i wanted to upload the photos of us cam whoring in the PLANE (: but nevermind cuz actually now i'm in the airport. ON MY WAY TO HONGKONG! Shop till you drop..whee!

I'll be trying to find some internet connection when i'm there if i can.. to blog or sth (: Keep in touchhh. ahaha.. i'm in the DBS lounge now, it's so pretty!! Anyway, I wanna be quick here cuz I have to go soon.. dun wanna miss boarding or anythinggg. (: Okok i duno why im typing this entry either just looking for something to do.. Jason and Harris are going to watch transformers today!!! ^^ Have fun guys. I'm gonna see Hannah in HK tmr! (: Whee-ness. I miss you babe!! I MISS YOU! ahah. AND SARAH ANN CHUNG MEI AN!! Come back soon. hurry hurry. ahaha

I'm soooo totally not used to the Singapore weather anymore, it's so HOTT HERE. omg. I melt in this swealtering heat..and im eating eating and becoming a roly poly >< heh. ah well, this calls for more GYM. Everyone's complaining about how warm it is here..and even in M'sia.. on is like HOT HOT HOT. ( yes yes on, we all know how HOT you are *grin* ) Owell.

Yesterday managed to meet up with Ryan, had lunch with him at this place called Harry's steakhouse..somewhere in esplanade. The food was average, but the company was fantastic (: haven't seen you in so long man!! ahah. everytime I see him he loses weight. >< After lunch we went to haagen dazs and ate FONDUE! *grin* YUMMMMY. then he accompanied me to Lim Kah Beng to see the doctor and we went to the arcade to play bang bang after (: Cuz actually we wantd to play dota but the place was too crowded..then we wanted to play pool but it was too crowded too so we ended up at bang bang. heh. after that went HOME.

Ohmygosh i haven't gotten to eat my duckrice yet ): I wanna eat my duckrice! NVM HONGKONG FOOD HEAVEN TOO (; hahahha. alright i'm gone (: (Jason dont ask me whats with promoting yourrr blog again) butt ya i tink his last entry was goood (: go checkit out! ahah AND SARAH I MISS YOUUUU COME BACKKKK

Pictures!

2007-06-27T14:27:00.000+08:00
Two more papers left two more papers left. *breathes* Lucky I don't have a paper today! More time to study! (: hehe. I just finished studying for Accounting paper tomorrow, I think I'll just browse through my notes one more time after UL later and I should be all ready for tomorrow! Pray Pray! Sarah's having her M&C now..*chuckles* arh I'm sure they'll do fine (: by God's grace.

Anyway, since I'm taking a quick break from studying, before I start on Econs, just thought I'd come and put up some (relatively) old photos, cuz I just uploaded them from my cam/phone into my com!

This one was reallyyyyy reallyyyy old (: Hehe. It was when Daddy gave his talk at SMU! ^^ I was there too! hahaha We all took teh front row seats =p. I should have taken a pic of him giving the talk though.. Ohwell (:

And a pic of two rugs I saw in Spain during my hols last year..They're sooooo cute seriously!! Kitty and Doggie! ahaha I wish I had rugs like those. Then again I'm not sure if they're rugs or humongous towels. I don't think the shop lady was too happy about me taking the pic so at that time I was like *snap and run*. (:

OH and the giant strawberry I saw in Raffles Place! How cute are those mascots! STRAWBERRY! (:

ok ok and a couple more recent pics, like during orientation in Feb! (:
We visited the farm and this guy showed us how he shears the sheep! hehe. I still remember that the sheep he sheared was a young sheep so it was it's first time going through that and it was mildly traumatized ): Poor thing. But he said it happens all the time for all their first times so ^^ okay! ahah..Got a vid of that, but can't upload so too bad cuz I didn't take a pic..hehe..

That's On, Felicia and I (: The first time I met Tham Kin On!! Orientation! haha =p I remember I kept playing with his specs.. Felicia's from M'sia too. ALL YOU M'SIANS! okok kidding kidding. peace ya, M'sians = nice people. =p

That's Hannah milking the cow.. You know what, at that time, I didn't know her yet. *chuckles* I just wanted to take a pic of any random person milking the cow, and viola! Somehow or other by coincidence it was HANNAH!! My beloved beeattch (: She freaked when I showed her the pic like coupla weeks back =p

And these..........These are random photos of the animals (: and feeding the animals. heh.. a cow, kangaroo n lambs (:

Alright that's about it i'm signing off, time to do work. Before I go though, I really wanna thank my Urbanlife people for coming over on monday night! They brought us like redbean soup with Tangyuan and Krispy Kremes and they made us that lemon+honey drink (i think cuz they heard we were all falling sick)..Thanks so much people! I really feel GOd's love through you guys! -huggles- I thank God for taking such good care of me n putting me in a UL family with fantabulous (fantastic+fabulous) people like all yoU!

Breather

2007-06-26T18:16:00.000+08:00
Seems like ages since I last blogged, but upon checking, I realize it's only been about 4-5 days! Not too bad, not too bad. >< Anyway *shoutout* anyone interested in seeing a dissected heart and a dissected kidney?? (sheeps, of course, not humann) Go to Jason's blog!

Well, a quick update, since the exams started I've completed 3 papers already! (Today was Lit, the third one) THREE DOWN, TWO TO GO!!! Add oil add oil! (: EAP was on saturday (yes, remind me again how awful it is to have a paper on sat..) but no complaints, it was alright I'd reckon. It's a very different format from Singapore, because it's not liek creative writing, but more liek copy paste, and you have to do referencing and make sure it's done properly or there goes your marks. Yep, but by God's grace, that should be alright. Math was truly disappointing cuz I didn't manage to finish the paper, which very rarely happens. Well as I said, by God's grace, the questions I did were alright and I'll get a good mark. Today was literature -- this one I'm quite positive was good (: Happy happy! So, all I'm left with is Accounting and Economics! Whoopee! And then back to Singapore I goooo!

Been studying at the Bailieu Library with On and Jason the past coupla days after my papers.. Heh. On has the same number of subjects as mee left cuz we take the same subject combiii >< Jason only has ONE MORE PAPER *slaps Jay* and HARRIS FINISHED HIS PAPERS. DANNGG. Soon Tzu also. ALL YOU MUSIC PEOPLE! Hannah's left with MnC and Acc, so she finishes on Thursday.. *grr* NEVERMIND! (: We're gonna watch Fantastic 4 on Friday night! yayyy. Then we'll pop over to On's place to chill-out.. fun-ness! Can't wait can't wait can't wait! And on Sunday i'll be on my way home! I MISS THE PEOPLE BACK HOMEE! (honestly, I don't really miss singapore, I mean yea it's a great place and stuff but.. ohwell >< hard to explain. heh. I do miss home n the people thoguh.. and I MISS A COMFY BED! zohmigosh, you should see hte palmerston beds *shudders*)

Shocking fact of the day: I busted my phonebill, and I have $386 left in my bank. ohmifishinggoodnesses! scary huh. I need to watch where my money is going mannn.. I think it's all going into my stomachhh.. *gives the Hannah face..* quote "Creeeeeeepyyyy" unquote. heh. When I say I busted my phonebill, I SERIOUSLY busted my phonebill. Don't undermine the word busted, cuz when I say busted i mean B.U.S.T.E.D. *sniffles* I really need to do something about it. PEOPLE I'M NOT CALLING OUT ANYMOREEE. LIVE WITHOUT ME. MUAHA. I feel bad, SORRY MUM SORRY DADDD ): I dont know whats wrong wid me either i'll watch my sms's and my calls and everything.. >< dui bu qi, wo zhi cuo le!! (all the 4D'05 people! Xie lao shi's "xia ci mei you xia ci le"!!!) haha. okay if it's not funny im sorry, it's an inside joke. hee..

and as for my bank balance, I really don't know how it ended up at 386. The fruits in Aussie are really expensive though ): Vic mart seems soooo faraway without a car *sniffle*. I'll post pics online sometime after I finish studying or when I'm back in sg or sth, I took pics of the prices of fruits in safeway! As Jan said, "Safeway is NOT saafeeeee!!!!!!" Somehow or other she busted 500bucks or so in a week ON FOOD IN SAFEWAY. so seriously, I have no idea. Don't worry folks, I didn't spend THAT much in safeway. ^^

Alright I have to get back to studying..All you trinity people out there or whoever's having exams, remember to take a breather alright, don't stress out! And all the people in SueLynn's urbanlife, I'M EXPECTING TO SEE YOU THERE ON WEDNESDAY OKAY! Especially SARAH LITING WAIMUN JO!!! Or Denise is going to give me a hard time. Anyway just take it as a chance to be refreshed and recharged by God!! Yes yes? (: Don't put studies b4 God, bcuz if you hang on to the things of this world too tightly he might just take them away from you ): [[like what shiyou said on sat's worship]]

Cheers to all! Love you!! See you people back in Singapore soon.. God bless all..Keep us all in prayer k (: and my condolences to the family and friends of Thaddeus Cheong >< well at least we can take heart that he's in heaven now, and that at least the last thing he did was break his own record. That's something we should all be proud of! I'm sure he'd want all you people to be happy so yup (: be happy for him aiite! *hugz to barry*

Shooter man

2007-06-21T21:43:00.000+08:00
Heyya!

Here's another quickie (: This time it has to be REALLY quick, not like last night's "quick". For those of you who haven't heard, there was some shooter guy on the loose in Melbourne Central area >< Near flinders street.. He tried to shoot a woman (I think) whom he yanked out of the cab by her hair. Two men came to her rescue, one of whom is not even Australian!! He was a tourist! Anyway, in the end, one of the guys died, (the tourist is the one who didn't) and the lady and the tourist are injured and in Royal Melbourne Hospital (which is so near my place)..

Those two guys are seriously noble men!! Sarah Janessa and I were just talking about it last night, how many of us can say that if we were in that situation we would actually have stepped out and helped the victim? It's easy to say yes or no right now but if we're really faced with the situation would that answer change? Heh.. Ohwell >< Very commendable. And my condolences to the family of the man who died, but at least he died a very noble death.

It's interesting though, how the world commends heroes as such, and remembers them for years and years and commemorates their death, but the death of our Saviour (who rose again) is so quickly overlooked. That God sent his son Jesus to die on the cross to save us from eternal damnnation! We were in the position of that woman - vulnerable and in great danger. Imagine how she feels, that someone died in a successful attempt to save her.. He died in her place. That's how I feel.. eternally grateful that Jesus died for us on the cross, to take away my sin my shame my pain my suffering, to pave my way to heaven, to eternal life! Aweeeesome (:

And yea! LSBC people! Heard the camp was fantastic!! "Re-encounter" with God, so many lives were touched, young and old alike. God is so good! I say it again ... GOD IS SO GOOD! In fact good is not enough, but i'll never find a word which is good good good good enough to describe it so yeah >< you get the point, that's what matters. haha. My family was touched in a very personal and deep way by the holy spirit as well, praise the Lord! God is working so greatly this year, I can't wait to see what else He has in store! Indeed 2007 is a special year!

Alright much as I'd like to stay, I have to run. Btw the shooter turned himself in, so I'm very safe, don't worry! Anyway I'm covered by the blood of God (: I'll be safe anyyyywayyyyyyyyyyy. Hehe.! Now all you blog readers who have exams coming up (you know who you are!!!) RUN ALONG AND STOP BLOG-SURFING!! It's time to study!

Love you many many my brothers n sisters!

[[8 days 8 days 8 days ^^]]

Have faith

2007-06-21T00:17:00.000+08:00
I have to make this a quickie because it's like 220am here and I really shouldn't be up.. I just finished making my points for my literature exam and yea I'm really kinda sleepy now =p But I just wanted to blog because I've been wanting to do so for the past say..3 days or so? Maybe more. And my roommate Sarah just went to my blog and said "Gwenniee I'm at your blog!" *pauses and waits for page to load* "ehhh why never update!"
-faints- and therefore I feel the big urge to update.

Y'know, I was thinking of what to type..And I figured after awhile. (: So here goes. I realized that as many of us start freaking out over our literature exams, and mugging like nobody's business, I've started to see this popping out over quite a number of blogs. "The Happiness of Love is a Shooting Star, The Pain of Love is the Darkness that follows..." A quote from the collection of short stories {A Thousand Years Of Good Prayers} by Li YiYun. And just yesterday night, I was thinking to myself how painful it could be to love someone. I guess it has it's pro's and cons yea (: and I was really frustrated over some stuff last night. It can be really a blessing and stuff to love someone, but if the circumstances are not right it's just a pain in the ass "the darkness that follows"...I was doing my Quiet Time after that last night and I read these verses.

Psalms 18:2 The LORD is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge. He is my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.
verse 16 He reached down from on high and took hold of me; he drew me out of deep waters.
verse 20 The LORD has dealt with me according to my righteousness; according to the cleanness of my hands he has rewarded me
verse 24 The LORD ha rewarded me according to my righteousness, according to the cleanness of my hands in his sight.

So true, I really thank God so much >< When I flipped open the book and saw verse 2 I was reminded of the strength that I should draw from Him. Sometimes I find it so hard to obey His word, especially when it comes to things like my feelings, my emotions and etcetera, but I was reminded once again that I have nothing to fear for the LORD is my rock and my fortress! Amen! He is the rock that I should build my life on --> a strong base! I felt so much better after that, and I felt that God really loved me so much (:

Note verse 20 and 24.. According to my righteousness. Remember always to stay righteous! Meditate on the word of God and you will gradually learn to walk in His footsteps and grow to be more and more like Him! (That's my goal. hehe)

I was reading Aunty Li Leng's blog just now.. I'm so heartened to see that she's recovering so well! HAppy happy (: I'm taking something off her blog, which apparently was what aunty Lee Yong wrote to her, which I feel is so true.

Dear Lee Yong, I love this and have sent it to Benno.

“If God brings you to it, He will lead you through it.
Happy moments, praise God
Difficult moments, seek God
Quiet moments, worship God
Painful moments, trust God
Every moment, thank God.”

Amen! Every single moment, no matter what, let us place our trust in Him! Especially now that everyone is mugging their arses off for exams! (: Let us pray in unison that everyone will be able to concentrate well, that all of us will have good recall and be able to study smart, that God will grant us wisdom and that we will all be healthy.. My roomie just fell sick >< so keep her in prayer as well ya!!! God will heal you rahrah!! (: I LOVE YOU (= And also cuz there's a lot of drama(mama) going on around me now [[geez. why is my life so drama. WELL Thank you Jesus for that or else it'd be a boringggg life I guess]] so yep. Just pray that I will be able to focus on what I should focus on.. (and the same for everyone I guess, becuase everyone has their own distractions).

Alrightt, I'm off.....

P.S My family just came back from church camp and I heard it was absolutely aweesome! MY BROTHER BOUGHT ME A SOFT TOY!! I'm so happy =p just one church camp and he seems different *chuckles* (alot nicer). ahaha.. alright I'm off to bed now, I took a little bit too long to blog already. Will be back! REMEMBER TO KEEP ALL OF US IN PRAYER OKAY!
P.PS, Praise God I did well (erm I'm not going to define that, but well enough for me to be satisfied so yep that's well enough =p) for my EAP essay (which is like 5% of overall) and I did very well for ACC essay as well!! (cuz 99% of the whole cohort got like full marks??? haha) Praise Him!! Thank you Jesus Thank you Jesus Thank you Jesus!

OKay I'm outta here..Love you all very much, remember to keep thanking God and praising God at every single moment! HANG IN THERE!!

9 days 9 days 9 days *chants*

studyweek!

2007-06-15T19:18:00.000+08:00
Hey people!

Wow it's been like..10 days since I last blogged! So many things have happened in the last 10 days >< It's gonna be so hard to blog everything (and I have to make it quick because I'm actually at Hannah's place, supposedly studying, but i'm waiting for her to shower first) in one entry. I'll just stuff in major events I guess.. Anyway the most recent AND major event... DINNER! (just a couple of minutes ago..heh) Hannah's mum is an awesome cook! Her chicken rice is just so yummmmmyyyy.. I think I'll put on tonnes of weight if I continue to stayover here like that. *grins*

Alright, on a more serious note. On the 8th and 9th of June we had our Beautiful Woman event!! It was fantastic! We had guest Ps, Evangelist Chris Hill -- he is SUCH an anointed man of God! So many lives were touched! And I got so many things out of the seminar/event/thingamy (: It was so good that I ordered the dvd of all the sessions in Beautiful Woman! I'm bringing it along with me when I go back to Singapore (most probably) so those who wanna watch it (and you really don't want to miss out on this) let me know okay! We'll see what we can work out. hehe..

Here I wanna stop and share something >< Basically, I know many girls are having this problem, which I had before Beautiful Woman as well. It's the "I'm fat" problem. Haha. >< It's normal, I admit ^^ Can't help it right, at this age, we naturally look out for cute guys (and thus hope that cute guys are looking out for us pretty ladies too)-and hopefully that didn't sound too ditzy or bimbotic-but yea back to the topic, because of this it makes us overly conscious of ourselves and the people around us. Which leads us to be kinda.. well, lets say, critical of our looks and all that. Well just a couple of weeks back I started to feel fat (oh where have I heard that before) and ugly and non-worthy of anything (you know that mood) and the first night of Beautiful Woman, during worship, I felt God scolding me. LIKE OHMIGOSH! HOw scary is that. Well, basically yea, he said how dare you insult my creation, my beautiful creation. I was likeeee zooomiigooshhh *shuts up*. Haha.. And from then the diet stopped and everything. I just wanna encourage us girls to see us through Jesus' eyes! Not just the girls, in fact, some guys have this problem too. I mean, of course its good to dress up, doll up, look pretttyyy but we must not be dissatisfied with ourselves in our hearts! BECAUSE WE ARE BEAUTIFUL(and handsome, whichever is applicable)! Yes, YOU, YOU, YOU, YOU and YOU... and YOU.. and YOU!!! Awesome? (: AWEEESOME!

On the 10th June (Sunday) Ps Chris Hill was speaking for both services in Shakers! It was such a powerpacked weekend for me! Beautiful Woman on fri and sat, then sunday I stayed for both services with Ps C.Hill,and you know what was awesomeeee? He preached two different messages in both services, and they were all relevant..! Really shows that God never stops speaking to you.. and what's more they're not from passages in the bible that I haven't heard before -- they're all familiar passages, yet I learn something new from it! *nudge nudge* People who have read the bible from cover to cover, pleaseeee don't think that that is all there is to it!! KEEP ON READING cuz you'll always get new things from it each time you read it (:

Alright, so I just had my drama exam today (Hannah screams "Hello hello hello, hello world!") and it was freeaaakkkyyy. Well, thank God, I went for a power walk up and down the corridor of Evan Burge bldg before I actualy went in for the drama exam, because I was seriously freaking OUT. And God calmed my heart *phew* but when I went in I actually got nervous again. At least I got myself calmed down BEFORE that. Can you imagine if I had gone in panicky, and done the whole thing and got even more panickY? GEE. That would have been awful. But anyways,I prayed before the exam so in faith, I'm sure I did great (= Since I did put in effort, and I did commit it to God, therefore I am safe (:. HA! (Somebody say AMEN)

Anywayy, I have this family friend back home (my mum's friend, actually) who's not feeling well, but PRAISE GOD she is SO much better now! (Somebody say Hallelujah) whee. What can I say? Living testimony of the power of prayer. Okay I gotta scoot off already Hannah's DONE BATHING and I like the smell of her hair (okay that just sounded wrong) and she said "that just creeps me out" but I'm sure you guys don't need a running commentary of this so. CIAO! (:

HANNAH SAYS BYE WORLD!

ANd one last thing. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO Sue Lin jie jie, my darlings sky and snow, my maid Mini, and my slimeygreenmonster. (JOY PHUA!) OKay okay. I'm gone I love you all very very much..muackiess

-14 days-

Do Not Worry

2007-06-05T22:34:00.000+08:00
Hey dudes (and dudettes)!

Rarr today was such a tiring day, but it was nonetheless a good day.. ALthough another day of school, also another day of fun and time to spend with my friends! As I was telling Hannah just a couple of hours ago, I really thank God so much for puttnig so many new friends into my life, some of whom I'm closer to than others. I thank God especially for those I'm really close to and I can confide in, I really don't know what I would do without them around ><, to listen to my problems when I have them, to give me good and Godly advice when I need it, and to just accompany me and make me smile all the time (:

Our midyear exam timetables were sent to us today as well.. Will type mine out below at the end of this entry, and for those who want to know so that they can pray for us trinity people, please do! Thanks a million! I know pretty much everyone is starting to freak out now, especially since the timetables are released, really reminds us how close to the exams we are drawing. Just wanted to remind everyone not only to stay focused on our studies (although please don't overstress, have a good balance between work and play!! hehe) but also on God! Do not take your eyes off God and let exams become a bigger priority than Him, but instead, as in Matthew 6:33, seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all else will be given unto you. AS long as we continue to uphold His name and be faithful in our worship and our walk, God will provide (: For he is Jehovah Jireh, our provider!! Yay? yay! haha.. I would say if you have time (and having time is pretty much about making the time) go read Matthrew 6:25-34, and do not worry! [[BUT THIS DOES NO MEAN WE DON'T HAVE TO STUDY!!! *grin* it is in no way any justification for slacking offfff]]

Okie dokie! So here's the exam timetable..
Saturday June 23, 930am, English for Academic Purposes (3h10min)
Monday June 25, 930am, Math 1 Paper (3h)
2pm, Psychology, (2h10min)
Tuesday June 26, 930am, Literature (3h)
2pm, Biology (2h10min)
2pm, Environment and Development (2h40min)
Wednesday June 27, 930am, Math 2 Paper (3h10min)
2pm, Media and Comm (2h40min)
Thursday June 28, 930am, Accounting (3h10min)
2pm, Physics (1h10min)
Friday June 29, 930am, Chemistry (3h10min)
2pm, Economics (1h40min)

SO there you have it, our timetable! Eng for Acad Purposes (EAP) and Lit are compulsory, so can pray for the whole of trinity togetger.. we'll be having our drama monologue exam in the next couple of weeks as well so please pray! Esp for the memorizing of the scripts! hehe.. Just FYI, the subjects I take are EAP, Math 1, Lit, Accounting and Econs. Praise God, I don't have any two papers on one same day! *breathes*. hehe.. Alright it's getting awfully late. I gotta get to bed! Ciao, God Bless!!

God's Promise

2007-06-04T23:27:00.000+08:00
I'm just gonna make this a really really quick entry 'cause I'm dozing off in front of my computer. Hee.. Alright I'll just cut to the chase, or I'll take a century. Was talking to a friend online just now, who was feeling quite down due to something that happened.. Realized that back in Singapore quite a lot of people I know are getting attacked emotionally and also in terms of health.

I thought I'd just encourage all the people back home who are reading this and are going through some kind of setback or other, to keep on holding on to God's promise of healing and comfort! God is there for you, all the time (: He wants to listen to your problems and to carry your burdens for you.. And as I said in my previous entry, in all tht you do praise Him! Praise Him, no matter what the circumstance, for we serve a God who is faithful, and worthy of all praise, and is not of this world! yayy (: and if you guys have any prayer requests or anything just lemme know alright, drop me an email or sth..

And for those who are sick or not feeling well, continue to exalt His name and miracles will happen! Remember that there is power in the name of Jesus! Jesus not only wants to heal us, he has ALREADY died to take away our sicknesses and pain (: so hang in there people! And claim the promise of healing that God has given! Amen?

Alright I really have to go, I hardly got any sleep last night, don't ask me why. Insomnia! haha.. cheers, have a great week!! (: Whee.

Saviour of the World

2007-06-04T07:15:00.000+08:00
Rightey-o! The last time I blogged I wasn't even in Australia yet...JANUARY 31st! Ohmygosh, no wonder my blog is getting mouldy. Well, I'm not going to start blogging about what has been happening in my life from day 1 of reaching down under till now, mainly for two reasons. Firstly, it's gonna take forever (duhh).. and secondly, it's because I don't want my blog to be for rantings. I went through many old posts, and realized how much gossip there was, not only in my blog but in those of others.

As Pastor Russell Evans preached just a few Sundays ago, our blog is viewed by everyone and anyone, it's the world wide web! Why do we want to share our negative feelings with the world? If the world is reading our blogs, why not use it to spread the word of God? Why not use it to spread encouraging messages of love and hope to others? Why do we want to pass on our hurts and troubles to all the rest of the world through our blog? What can we achieve from it? Naught.

Alright, so what I have done is basically gone through all my old posts and took out everything with negative feelings in it, and took out everything with senseless babblings. I'm going to use this blog to let people know how amazingly God is working in this place! I'm going to use my blog to inspire and touch people and I wanna ask my friends who have blogs and rant in them, why use it to rant? Why use it to spread negative feelings of hatred and anger, of despair and sadness? why not use it to tell people of the good things that happen to you instead of the bad? My friends from church, I urge you to follow this kingdom pattern and use the blog for a greater cause! (:

Just a quick update, for my friends who have been asking me to update update update, I'm settling in very well, the first term was great, results were pretty good, the second term is even greater(now), and I know the rest of the year is just gonna be so awesome!! For those who do not know, I am currently attending planetshakers city church, and they just launched their CD yesterday -- Saviour of the World! The CD launch yesterday was so marvellous, God's presence was so so so strong it was just amazing!!! The song "Saviour of the World" is my current blog song, and I'm gonna type in the lyrics just below..

It's time for you and I to stand
To march into our promised land
To walk in faith, and not by what I see

His favour rests upon us now
We're clothed in righteousness and power
It's time for us to shout the victory

Lift Your eyes to see Him
Clothed in majesty
Great and powerful is He

Jesus He conquered the grave
Jesus the Lamb that was slain
Jesus the saviour of the world

Jesus He overcame sin
Jesus He's coming again
Jesus the saviour of the world

I just wanna emphasize on what the verse Ps Russell preached on in church the other week, Romans 12:2 - Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is - his good, pleasing and perfect will. Don't conform, TRANSFORM! (=.. Something to chew on for the day!

Tentmakers! I'm keeping you guys in prayer, keep growing as a cell and never ever let go of God! Do not conform to the circumstances of the world, for our God is not of this world (: Praise God in all you do, regardless of the circumstances, and leave the rest to Him!! Amen? (= Hang on to God's promise of deliverance all the time, and call out His name, for there is power in the name of Jesus! THERE IS POWER IN THE NAME OF JESUS!!!! (:

Cheers!! Allow God to work greatlyyy in your life this week! <33..

A new year, a new phase

2007-01-31T00:02:00.000+08:00
I shall start off by first and foremost, wishing everyone a happy 2007.. Yes that might be PRETTY late.. but it's better late than never! May 2007 be a year of blessings for all, and may God continue to touch lives day after day. 2007 marks a new phase in everybody's lives, and hopefully a new phase which will be inspiring and meaningful!

After O levels ended a lot of friends told me they felt as if they lost a purpose in life -- They felt aimless. Haha.. how ironic, everyone couldn't wait for it to end, and when it did some felt empty. Hehe. Well, I can't say the same for me, but I know I didn't waste my holidays away (: I have to admit though, I miss the days I was camping out at the library with Joy and (twice) Tsk..Those were the slimygreenmonster days. Which I actually shouldn't bring up lest I put any ideas in Joy's cute little head..

From the things I wanted to do, I have alot left, actually, and only 13 more days to do 'em.. I still haven't gone to the zoo, nor the night safari, nor have I gone rollerblading (I really should though). I have, however, gone to vivocity (a few times too many, in fact), gone shopping (it's almost a hobby), and been to kbox with Sue Lin Jie Jie (my cousin) and CK kor kor (my cousin in law)... Thank goodness also that I have managed to do a lot of catching up with my old friends, it's a pity that there are still a lot I've been unable to meet and I think I will be unable to meet until I'm back..TSK YOU STILL HAVE NOT SHOWN ME THAT NICE RESTAURANT AT CORONATION PLAZA! THIS DATE SHALL BE POSTPONED TILL I COME BACK FOR THE HOLIDAYS.. heehee..And sam, I'm glad you liked the cookies..Was my pleasure (:

Well, what have I been doing since O levels ended then? I went to China for holidays with my parents, my brohter couldn't make it though ): It was quite a good trip, spend a lot of quality time with my parents, and did a fair bit of shopping for warm clothing as Melbourne will be cold... (I hear that the weather changes are so great that it can seem like there are 4 seasons in a day) >.<

In December I went to Spain on a tour, which mummy signed up with Aunty Say Kiat for..I can't say much about it, I had a whale of a time, but was pretty sick.. It's called "Cathedral Fatigue". The name says it all lah, no need for further explaination. The good thing is that on this trip I got to know Aunty Christina, Aunty Say Kiat, Uncle Hock Huat and Ryan a lot better (: Good bonding time! And HIGHLIGHT OF THE TRIP (actually this is said because I know fang is reading this) is that I made at least two new friends! And I want to point out these two especially cute and lovable friends -- Mei Fang and Mei Yang! Haha.. I'll post their pictures in my friendster feel free to go look (: If I have time i'll upload it here sometime soon as well.. Haha.. I've been talkint to them alot even after we got back to SIngpaore, and Ryan me and the meimei's still meet up a lot and have lotsa fun together.. HAha I really really will miss them while I'm in Aussieland. We've shared tonnes of happy memories and I'll really really treasure 'em!

In January I started work in my Dad's office. I'm currently on leave now though, cuz my boss told me to go play and catch up with friends and pack and spend more time with my mommy...Heehee. All through the time since after O levels i've been trying to meet up with my friends (:

Anyway, due to a recent spate of events, I suddenly realize that I want to tell all my friends that they're very much treasured, and I love you guys...I see friends quarrel, and patch up.. I see friends quarrel and don't..I just pray for everyone to be back happy again, that's the most I can do. (: Oh yes, for those who asked, the date I'm leaving is 12th Feb (: I will post ways to contact me in this blog(both phone and mailing add)..ONLY IF YOU WANT TO CALL though. it's at your own expense (: If not you can just email me! I'm still very very reachable, and I"ll be on MSN as often as I am now.. but I think the time difference is ( i'm nto sure) 2 or 3 hours. Yup..We're ahead.

So, I will continue to keep you posted! In the meantime, everybuddy take care! and continue to keep the tagboard alive k! TSK YOU STOPPED SPAMMING MY TAGBOARD? WHY? I MISS YOU! hahah (: Cheers everybuddy!

I bumped into him today...God grant me. wisdom. strength. discipline

Just her in the wind

2006-09-25T17:46:00.000+08:00
disclaimer: the girl is not me. I just liked the way this was written. (:
Just her in the wind

So there she stood, clad in her baby pink nightgown with intricate stitches made down the sides, each one painstakingly and carefully sewn by hand, the patterns weaving into a beautiful font which read “love”. And as she stood there all alone, surrounded only by the sturdy old oak trees and the brown leaves which had fallen and made a pile on the ground around her, she closed her eyes and smiled in thought. Memories of the times spent with him came back to her like a breath of wind, blowing new life into both her and the leaves encircling her.

Stretching out her arms, in welcome of the wind, and inhaling deeply, she felt it move as she heard the rustle of leaves surround her as the wind lifted them off the ground, tossing them about in a circular fashion. As the wind flirted with the edges of her dress, she felt like she was in the middle of a mini windstorm, letting her thoughts whirl in it. It was to her, like she had transcended her physical limitations and was being elevated from the ground, carried by the wind.

The true hurricane, however, existed solely in her heart. It was a battlefield where the boundaries of good and bad dissolved into each other. This is now, or never, she pined in thought, the pangs of unrequited love pestering her. From friends, to lovers – was that how they were to end? She would leave that all to God, she had made her decision. Her life was completely surrendered into His caring and gentle hands.

-Anonymous-

Don't complain

2006-08-05T09:05:00.000+08:00
Don't complain if you are pushed into action by those who love you...

The first thing to emerge at a baby giraffe's birth is its fromt hooves and head. Minutes later, the newborn is hurled from the mother's body, falls ten feet, and lands on its back. Within seconds, it rolls to an upright position with its leg tucked under its body. From this position, it views the world for the first time and shakes off any remaining birth fluid.

The mother giraffe then lowers her head just long enough to take a quick look at her calf, then she does what seems to be a very unreasonable thing: she kicks her baby, sending it sprawling head over heels. If it doesn't get up, she kicks again and again until the calf finally stands on its wobble legs. Then what does the mother giraffe to? She kicks it off its feet! Why? She wants it to remember how it got up.

In the wild, baby giraffe must be able to get up as quickly as possible to stay with the herd and avoid becoming meals for lions, hyenas, leopards and wild hunting dogs. The best that the mother giraffe can do to ensure that her calf lives, is for her to teach it to "get up quickly and get it over and done with".

So once again, don't complain if you are poushed into action by those who love you. They are doing you a favour! =D

Perserverence Pays

2006-08-03T15:34:00.000+08:00
Hey I got this in my mail.. I don't know how many here have read it, but those who haven't it's worth a read. To all, remember never to give up, because perserverence will get you far one day. Seemingly impossible things may not always be impossible, so hold on to your faith dearly. All the best to everyone, esp those taking A's and O's this year! Cheerios!

>> Robby's Night
>>
>>
>> At the prodding of my friends, I am writing this story. My name is Mildred
>> Hondorf. I am a former elementary school music teacher from Des Moines,
>> Iowa. I've always supplemented my income by teaching piano
>> lessons-something I've done for over 30 years. Over the years I found that
>> children have many levels of musical ability. I've never had the pleasure
>> of having a prodigy though I have taught some talented students.
>>
>> However I've also had my share of what I call "musically challenged"
>> pupils. One such student was Robby. Robby was 11 years old when his mother
>> (a single Mom) dropped him off for his first piano lesson. I prefer that
>> students (especially boys!) begin at an earlier age, which I explained to
>> Robby.
>>
>> But Robby said that it had always been his mother's dream to hear him play
>> the piano. So I took him as a student. Well, Robby began with his piano
>> lessons and from the beginning I thought it was a hopeless endeavor. As
>> much as Robby tried, he lacked the sense of tone and basic rhythm needed to
>> excel. But he dutifully reviewed his scales and some elementary pieces that
>> I require all my students to learn.
>>
>> Over the months he tried and tried while I listened and cringed and tried
>> to encourage him. At the end of each weekly lesson he'd always say, "My
>> mom's going to hear me play someday." But it seemed hopeless. He just did
>> not have any inborn ability. I only knew his mother from a distance as she
>> dropped Robby off or waited in her aged car to pick him up. She always
>> waved and smiled but never stopped in.
>>
>> Then one day Robby stopped coming to our lessons.
>>
>> I thought about calling him but assumed because of his lack of ability,
>> that he had decided to pursue something else. I also was glad that he
>> stopped coming. He was a bad advertisement for my teaching!
>>
>> Several weeks later I mailed to the student's homes a flyer on the upcoming
>> recital. To my surprise Robby (who received a flyer) asked me if he could
>> be in the recital. I told him that the recital was for current pupils and
>> because he had dropped out he really did not qualify. He said that his
>> mother had been sick and unable to take him to piano lessons but he was
>> still practicing "Miss Hondorf I've just got to play!" he insisted.
>>
>> I don't know what led me to allow him to play in the recital. Maybe it was
>> his persistence or maybe it was something inside of me saying that it would
>> be all right. The night for the recital came. The high school gymnasium was
>> packed with parents, friends and relatives. I put Robby up last in the
>> program before I was to come up and thank all the students and play a
>> finishing piece. I thought that any damage he would do would come at the
>> end of the program and I could always salvage his poor performance through
>> my "curtain closer."
>>
>> Well, the recital went off without a hitch. The students had been
>> practicing and it showed. Then Robby came up on stage. His clothes were
>> wrinkled and his hair looked like he'd run an eggbeater through it. "Why
>> didn't he dress up like the other students?" I thought. "Why didn't his
>> mother at least make him comb his hair for this special night?"
>>
>> Robby pulled out the piano bench and he began. I was surprised when he
>> announced that he had chosen Mozart's Concerto #21 in C Major. I was not
>> prepared for what I heard next. His fingers were light on the keys, they
>> even danced nimbly on the ivories. He went from pianissimo to fortissimo.
>> >From allegro to virtuoso. His suspended chords that Mozart demands were
>> magnificent! Never had I heard Mozart played so well by people his age.
>> After six and a half minutes he ended in a grand crescendo and everyone was
>> on their feet in wild applause.
>>
>> Overcome and in tears I ran up on stage and put my arms around Robby in
>> joy. "I've never heard you play like that Robby! How'd you do it? " Through
>> the microphone Robby explained: "Well Miss Hondorf . .. Remember I told you
>> my Mom was sick? Well, actually she had cancer and passed away this morning
>> And well . . . She was born deaf so tonight was the first time she ever
>> heard me play. I wanted to make it special."
>>
>> There wasn't a dry eye in the house that evening. As the people from Social
>> Services led Robby from the stage to be placed into foster care, noticed
>> that even their eyes were red and puffy and I thought to myself how much
>> richer my life had been for taking Robby as my pupil.
>>
>> No, I've never had a prodigy but that night I became a prodigy. . Of
>> Robby's. He was the teacher and I was the pupil for it is he that taught me
>> the meaning of perseverance and love and believing in yourself and maybe
>> even taking a chance in someone and you don't know why.
>>
>> Robby was killed in the senseless bombing of the Alfred P. Murrah Federal
>> Building in Oklahoma City in April of 1995. Thank you for reading this
>>
>>
>>
>> May God bless you today,tomorrow and always

Miracles

2006-06-28T16:46:00.000+08:00
Hrm, just thought I'd blog about miracles of God. I know I haven't done this before, but then again, it's probably because I haven't seen any before. (To those agnostic/aethist/anti-christ/do-not-like-to-hear-about-christ people, you can stop reading right here for today's entry, but I'd encourage reading it anyway, it's good stuff)

Recently, I've seen many miracles, and I guess it's because God is now moving into a time of signs and wonders. He is moving His mighty hand among us and showing his glory. God has done so much through so many anointed people, be they prophets or pastors etc. When Pastor Rusty came to Singapore, he visited my church and prayed for quite a number of fellow brothers and sisters in Christ. It was amazing, a first time experience for me, and very very refreshing for my spiritual life. I saw people with limbs of different lengths, thus causing backaches / neckaches / movement problems, get heals, their shorter limb growing out there and then. RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME! Yes! God is good! I saw a lady who used to have a beautiful voice go for healing as well. She said that in the recent months, her voice had become croaky and she couldn't sing as she used to, as such, she had to stop singing for the worship team for a period of time. That night, she sang once more in her wonderful clear voice =) It's amazing isn't it? Just glorify His name! =D

In the latest church camp as well (it was a pity I didn't go as I had school) somebody was healed. There's this person in my church, he's a cellmate's dad, who has been walking with a limp due to some illness that affected his legs (I think). But I knwo he has been limping for a long time, and I've seen him hobbling around church with his wife supporting him. This church camp, he went up to the altar and received God's healing! Praise God! Now I see him WALKING around church! God is GOOD, AMEN! Amazing isn't it? I used to have my own reservations and doubts about miraculous healings, as they have never happened to me and I had never witnessed any. This time however, it was truly truly an eye opener for me, and a faith-building experience.

That wasn't all I saw, but to name all the miracles would take me a long time. God has just really been so so good. Well, whatever it is, for those who want to know more, you can come and ask me and I promise to make time to tell you. Those who don't believe in a God, the agnostic and aethist, or those who are interested, I actually am reading this book now, it's called "Case for Faith", by Lee Strobel. I would recommend this book, which can be found at any Christian bookstores =). It's a really good book that proves the existence of Christ through FACTS and arguments backed up by evidence. Nothing that's baseless or groundless, it's a really good book, especially for those who feel that Intelligence and Religion cannot go together. Just read and be surprised =)

God bless.

A Heart of Gratitude

2006-02-12T00:33:00.000+08:00
Today I went to church. Sermon was on Gift to the King. Rachel came today =) We had dinner together, along with mum and dad, who asked why Jul didn't come along so I just said he was out with his classmates, which he was anyway. haha.. yEps. Okay, so currently I'm supposed to save up cuz I need to give to the king =). Yep.. Offering. Ohwells, gladly. ahaha..

Today learnt that we have to praise the Lord no matter what. Yeah, it is hard to praise the Lord when things go wrong, and I guess of course, (like Stacia said during discussion) the Lord probably doesn't expect us to thank him for the things which go wrong, that would just mean we're saddists or we're crazy.. haha.. abnormal people..but must thank God for te process. Its like the story Stacia told us. Lets say we wanna go to Orchard Road. There are a few ways, youc an take a straight bus, you can take a taxi, you can walk, you can get on the wrong bus and take a loooong route and gotta change bus then can get there.. so soemtiems you don't get the route you want and find yourself on the wrong bus, but there's a reason why God lets you take the wrong bus. Perhaps He seated you with someone who needs encouragement? perhaps He seated you withs omeone who could encourage you? Perhaps He wanted soemtime from your heectic schedule so He could talk to you? Perhaps He wanted you to sit back and enjoy the scenery of life? He has His reasons, not for giving you the difficulty and making you get on the wrong bus, but for letting it happen to you.At the end of the journey, you still get to Orchard Road.So.. with regards to my Chinese O's which I was very upset about yesterday, I guess God has his reasons for letting that happen to me as well. Shall keep in prayer about what he wants me to learn.

I gtg already =) Shall post again! Dinner tonight was nice! I always feel happier after church and all the praising and prayers.. God's presence is sooo good to have around! Fabulous! okayyy laters!

anti suicidal (:

2006-02-08T20:28:00.000+08:00
Yesterday's Chinese lesson was hilarious. Lian Lao Shi (a.k.a mei zhe ge bi yao) *wink wink. in-class PRC joke* was telling us about what people do when they're depressed. Like the ways the commit suicide and stuff. The funniest part was when he told us about how ridiculous the taiwan dramas are when the lead actor or actress is trying to kill himself/herself. They always run to the ocean and slowly "yi bu yi bu" walk in. In Lian Lao Shi's own words "Kan dao e yu bu shi ma shang pao chu lai le! Zhen me zi sha??" (Once you see an alligator/shark (not sure which also) you'll dash out immediately, how to kill yourself?!) He said if you ever feel like killing yourself over stuff that you kan bu kai, please, do this. (Like seriously, pay attention. You could save your life just by reading my blog cuz I'm telling you what Lian Han Chuan Lao Shi said) Get your pair of running shoes out. Put it on. and RUN. run run run run run run run run run run.. run till you can't run anymore. when you can't run anymore, crawl. CRAWL and crawl. Crawl till you can't crawl anymore. and when you can't crawl anymore. roll. ROLL and ROLL and roll and roll till you're relaly really really out of energy. NOt even an ounce left in you. Then you'll only want water. If I ask you if you still wanna kill yourself you'll be like "nooo. just give me WATER.. NOW! WATER!".. yeah. so there. Get a pair of running shoes ready! haa.. esp all Sec 4's this year.. BUt hope no one will be in need of 'em. hehe

Rainy Sunday

2005-08-21T16:52:00.000+08:00
Praise the Lord, its Sabbath once more! Well, woke up pretty late again today, at least I got my 8 precious hours of sleep. *grinx* Went for Youth in the morning, worship was good. Felt the presence of God, it was really strong. Word touched on hearing God speaking to us. New insights. We took time to pray and listen, ask God to speak to us be it through visions or words or verses etcetera. A picture in my computer came to my my mind when I was praying so I tried to draw it out. ( You see we were supposed to draw out our vision or write whatever God was telling us or showing us on a piece of white paper Uncle Kheng Khuen gave out ) I'll attach the photo later =). Then someone's name came to my mind as well, shall talk to him later. Indeed he DOES have probs, I guess I shall have to start praying harder for him. May God continue to speak to me.

Oh yeah. Praise the Lord, it was raining today. Apparently, according to Daddy, it was supposed to be really hazy and all today, but thanks to the rain there was no haze! Hallelujah! =D.

Okay I gotta run~ Moles Kinematics and Mahler calls. *faints* haha. ohwell if Mahler really called me, I'll really faint. =p. -.-"
I'm off off and away~!
byeE

Combine these two photos together and they give u the vision I had.. yEp.. =)

Value what you have

2005-07-27T23:31:00.000+08:00
I'm actually just taking a 5minute break from my studying, but I thought I'd like to post this here. I took it off my Math worksheet (additional math), cuz Mr Yeo likes to put stuff like this at the end of the worksheets for a refreshing change and getting yr mind off the math for awhile =)

To realize the value of a sister
ask someone who doesn't have one.

To realize the value of ten years
ask a newly divorced couple.

To realize the value of four years
ask a graduate.

To realize the value of one year
ask a student who's failed a final exam

To realize the value of nine months
ask a mother who gave birth to a stillborn

To realize the value of one month
ask a mother who has given birth to a premature baby

To realize the value of one week
ask an editor of a weekly newspaper.

To realize the value of one hour
ask the lovers who are waiting to meet

To realize the value of one minute
ask a person who has missed the train, bus or plane.

To realize the value of one second
ask a person who has survived an accident

To realize the value of one millisecond
ask a person who has won a silver medal in the Olympics.

Time waits for no man,
Treasure everymoment you have.
You will treasure it even more when you can share it with someone special.

To realize the value of a friend : lose one.

LoL..yeah..I think that's v.true n pretty meaningful ask well =) Treasure everyone and everything you have around you before you don't get to anymore... Don't take anyone for granted! (or anything for that matter)

To all 3D-ians and DHS-ians who are taking E.Math test tmr! JIA YOU! =)
Oh, and KaiKeng, HAPPY BDAE! =)

God is Great

2005-06-14T21:25:00.000+08:00
Amazing, church camp was simply amazing... The presence of God was so so strong, He is indeed alive and among us! Praise the Lord =) Especially during Holy Spirit Night when i was slain. wow..it was so so amazing... I felt God so strongly like i've never before..And He really opened my eyes to many things..I never knew just worship alone could be so powerful...Our God is indeed a God who works miracles and answers prayers in such a marvellous way. Like, on Holy Spirit Night when I was slain I was touched by the Spirit of Joy..Oh my gosh, I was laughing so so hard I couldn't stop for about what, an hour?! It was even hard to breathe, but the Lord had taken away my sorrow and filled me with so much joy I couldn't even contain it... Amazing huh~! It was fantastic. Praise the Lord for all He's done for us...

So anyway, just thought I'd post the lyrics to my new blogsong..Its really touching, for those who know, its the one that Faith sang duno when..ONe of those times in chUrch la..yups. hahaz

We rode into town the other day
Just me and my daddy...
He said I'd finally reached the age
and I could ride, next to him on a horse,
that of course, was not quite as wide.

We heard a crowd of pple shouting,
and so we stopped to find out why.
There was that man, that my dad said he loved,
but today there was fear in his eyes.
So i said
"Daddy why are they screaming,
why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why is he dressed in that bright purple robe?
I bet that crown hurts him more than he shows...
Daddy please,
can't you do something?
He looks as though He's gonna cry.
You said he was stronger than all of those guys.
Daddy please tell me why;
why does everyone want him to die...?"

Later that day the sky grew cloudy,
and Daddy said I should go inside.
Somehow he knew things would get stormy -
boy was he right,
but I could not keep from wondering
if there was something he had to hide.
So after he left,
I had to find out,
I was not afraid of getting lost,
so I followed the crowds, to a hill
where I knew men had been killed.
And I heard a voice come from the cross
and it said
"Father why are they screaming,
why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why are they casting their lots for my robes?
This crown of thorns hurts me more than it shows!
Father please, can you do something?
I know that you must hear my cry...
I thought I could handle a cross of this size,
Father remind me why,
why does everyone want me to die,
and when will I understand why...?"

"My precious son I hear them screaming,
I'm watching the face of the enemy beaming,
but soon I will clothe you in robes of my own,
Jesus this hurts me much more than you know!
But this dark hour, I must do nothing,
though I've heard your unbearable cry....
The power in your blood destroys all their lies,
soon you'll see past their unmerciful eyes!
Look there below and see the child,
trembling by her father's side...
Now I can tell you why,
she is why you must die..."

Its super touching, right?? awh..I cried the first time Faith sang it..okay aniwaes, I'm sick. Shall get to bed. hahas..goodnight pplez!

LIVING OR EXISTING?

2005-04-25T23:50:00.000+08:00
Every man dies, but not every man lives. Are you living, or are you merely existing? Worth pondering over isn't it? Is it time to start living, and stop existing? Life is short, believe in it, and make full use of it. I want to learn my purpose in Life, God's purpose for me in life. I need to get back to my QT routine. >.<.Makeover time~

Optimism

2005-04-20T22:34:00.000+08:00
"It is better to light a candle than to curse the darkness." Such a good quote! True, isn't it? I'm supportive of optimists, but don't overdo it by creating illusions for oneself. Nonetheless, being optimistic is good =). That quote above was by Jeremy Lim, the young advocate of NKF suffering from brittle bone disease. Indeed, when we are in any situation whereby there seems to be no way out, always look on the bright side, and do our best to help those around us as well. Just like Jeremy, who, instead of going into depression over his disease which prevents him from growing up physically like other kids, aspires to be a genetic scientist so as to help other people suffering from the same disease as him. Always look on the bright side of life! No matter what happens, there is someone out there going through something worse, so don't grumble and don't frown =D

I shall end this entry with a joke that got me laughign non-stop in the middle of class. Thanks to Zhang Fan's readers' Digest. All that laughter got Qin Yuan thinking I was a little off my rocker but oh, what the heck =D!

Things you don't want to hear under anaesthetic:
*This patient has already had children, am I right?
*You'd better save that. We'll need it for the autopsy.
*Incredible! Now can you make his leg twitch?
*Wait a minute; if this is his spleen, then what's that?
*Could you stop that thing from beating; it's throwing my concentration off.
*Everybody stand back! I've lost my contact lens!
*Well, this will be an experiment for all of us.
*What's this doing here?
*Nurse, did this patient sign the organ donation card?

-Andy McCluggage-

More Photos!

2005-04-10T15:47:00.000+08:00

That's kenneth with his creation. It's named Kenneth Jr.. heh heh..Its super cute right! You should ask him for the one of the melted Kenneth Jr.. wahhahaa..Crumbled and gone in a pool of water~ *lalala*..hee

That's Brandon with Kenneth Jr. =) He helped build Kenneth Jr too anw ;)... Hey I had a part too!! I helped to dig out that body of Kenenth Jr from the snow cuz SOME PEOPLE couldn't figure out how to get it out and was just trying to tug it out but to no avail.~ heh heh..Gwen saves the day~!! =)

That's SUPER cute right!! Chocolate cakes! PoRCUPINE chocolate cakes! I couldn't resist taking a photo of them..wahha. In zurich =)

That's mornique with the CUTEEEE little boy in Switzerland! =) I think his name was..oops I forgot. NIQUE! I'm sure you remember! You were crazy over him :P hahahaa..Refresh my memory please ;)

That's Dennis, Edwin, Michelle Tan, Me and Daniel! =) haha..nice photo yeah? All the Tan's (except for Dennis LIM..) EXTRAAAA *gRInz* (awww..I'm kidding, please don't feel out of place *gRInz*)

That's London Bridge..I think the sky there looks nice too..clear and blue. Beautiful~ =)...
okay anyway I gotta run again =p..hee..Alot of photos right! I miss Europe...........

caught in the middle

2005-03-27T21:05:00.000+08:00
once again, caught in the middle. two options, one choice. Is it just me? I dont know. am i talking strange? am i behaving weird? maybe..am i being to sensitive or were they picking on me? i keep thinking of dad's dream...is it true? was God trying to say something? I want to know..

if yuo've put in so much so so much into something..and things dnt turn out the way they should..how does it feel?
can a punishment ever be too harsh?
will there ever be too many questions to be asked?
if you're blamed for something you didn't do..how would you feel?
if you're wrongly accused, what would you do?
if no one around you can understand, what happens next?
if you can't let it out...
if you can't let it go...

if you've given soso much..yet everything's topsy turvey..
if you feel a certain way yet cannot express it..

i duno maybe its just me. it probbaly is. i can't find a way to let it out let it go...it always seems gone..seems to be going..and it comes back. I jsut wanna shut it out. out out. never let it back..

that somthing that you put so much into..it means alot.
it has to..if not you wouldn't bother putting all that effort, that sweat, that love..into it would you?
one setback. its gone..crushed..woudl you still lvoe it? treasure it?
its too dear to let go..can you ?
CAN I?
SHOULD I?
MUST I?
choices.

thank my blog for letting me let it out .. but i've yet to let it go..

God help me..give me strength..
Give me strength to pull through
give me wisdom..
give me wisdom to see your way..
wisdom to see what you want for me..let me know, let me feel let me see..
God grant me patience..
God grant me love..
Dont let the feeling..evolve anymore..it stops here Lord help me..
Lord teach me.. guide me.. show me..
this is my prayer..take this burden away Lord..
i can't take it anymore..soon..its wearing thin..
be with me, show me guide me teach me love me let me hear, let me see..let me know..let me u nderstand..let me love let me forgive..

Guess who's back!

2005-03-09T18:45:00.000+08:00
Oh my gosh! Praise the Lord, Amen! Indeed, He works miracles beyond our imagination..Hallelujah Thank you God! I thought she wasn't going to come back! Forgive me for lack of faith, i have sinned. Yes, it IS indeed what you are thinking! JESSIE'S BACK! wooHoo! =D that stupid noisy dog that gives me rashes! That dog that leaves her fur flying around my room! The dog that loveees smelling where she isn't supposed to! (right Brandon and Kenneth? =p) the adorable white-brown shetland sheepdog! *rejoices*

What happened was she ran out of the house at goodness knows what time, and she was around the punggol nasi lemak area when she almost got run down by a few cars..this lady called Natasha who was driving by took pity on her and brought her back home, planning to keep her for a few days till she had time to bring Jess down to SPCA =) Well well, my bro, who has already POP-ed (pass out parade) was agreeabel to buying TWO new dogs (so they would have companionship) and thus mum andd dad went to SPCA to look around. They happened to mention that we had lost a dog, and the lady at SPCA referred them to the "lost and found animals" section where they registered a lost dog, with description and all. This morning, the SPCA called up and said they checked their records and saw that someon had registered a found dog with a VERY close description but they hadn't put it in the papers as the dog had not been brought down to the SPCA yet. Natasha had called to register a found dog by phone...So SPCA gave mum Natasha's contact and after conversing with her, munm was a hundred and one percent sure the dog was jessie. You can piece out what happened from there..

There was no proof needed that Jessie was ours..apparently from what dad said, Jessie dashed in euphoria straight into mum's outstretched arms once the lady came down in the lift (condo)..kissing mummy and barking in joy...haha..fantastic isn't it..God really works miracles..I thought she was never gonna come back, not after so long..anyway i gotta stop here..have to bathe, eat dinner and get ready for tuitoin, i just fcame back from school. I'm starting to breakout in rashes already. was cuddling jessie just now. SEE LA stupid dog. =)) [[WELCOME HOME JESSIE!!! ]] now home feels more liek home *wink*

~~Princess Gwen~~

Erlking~Erlkönig

2005-03-06T20:41:00.000+08:00
Hmm..studying MEP, realized i didn't know the story of Erlking (cuz i didn't see the notes yet, didn't realize we actually had notes on it)..yEp..was studying the German score and had no idea wht it was talking abt so decided to come online and search. Got the whole translated poem! so cooL =D about a father riding on horseback through a storm with his sick child in his arms. The delirious boy has visions of the legendary Erlking, the king of the elves who symbolizes death.

Wer reitet so spät durch Nacht und Wind?
Es ist der Vater mit seinem Kind;
Er hat den Knaben wohl in dem Arm,
Er faßt ihn sicher, er hält ihn warm.

"Mein Sohn, was birgst du so bang dein Gesicht?"-
"Siehst, Vater, du den Erlkönig nicht?
Den Erlenkönig mit Kron' und Schweif?"-
"Mein Sohn, es ist ein Nebelstreif."-

"Du liebes Kind, komm, geh mit mir!
Gar schöne Spiele spiel' ich mit dir;
Manch' bunte Blumen sind an dem Strand;
Meine Mutter hat manch' gülden Gewand."-

"Mein Vater, mein Vater, und hörest du nicht,
Was Erlenkönig mir leise verspricht?"-
"Sei ruhig, bleibe ruhig, mein Kind!
In dürren Blättern säuselt der Wind."-

"Willst, feiner Knabe, du mit mir gehn?
Meine Töchter sollen dich warten schön;
Meine Töchter führen den nächtlichen Reihn
Und wiegen und tanzen und singen dich ein."-

"Mein Vater, mein Vater, und siehst du nicht dort
Erlkönigs Töchter am düstern Ort?"-
"Mein Sohn, mein Sohn, ich seh' es genau;
Es scheinen die alten Weiden so grau."-

"Ich liebe dich, mich reizt deine schöne Gestalt;
Und bist du nicht willig, so brauch' ich Gewalt."-
"Mein Vater, mein Vater, jetzt faßt er mich an!
Erlkönig hat mir ein Leids getan!"-

Dem Vater grauset's, er reitet geschwind,
Er hält in Armen das ächzende Kind,
Erreicht den Hof mit Mühe und Not;
In seinen Armen das Kind war tot.

the translation is--- http://www.talisman.org/~erlkonig/erlkonig-poem.shtml ---here! loLz..

I'm off to study again..shall blog later on tonight. or maybe tmr morning.. byebye~

Closer to me~ by five

2005-03-02T23:20:00.000+08:00
[[ also taken frm old blog..last one..bye pple~ ]]
~Closer to me by Five~
Constantly girl you're on my mind,
And girl i think about you all of the time
And even though words are hard to say,
Girl i miss you, never thought i'd feel this way.

Bridge
If you keep on taking, my heart you'll be breaking so why do you do this to me?
You know how i'm feeling it's you i believe in baby can't you see that i need you?

Chorus
You know that it's true.
Every time i see your face i miss you baby
You know that it's you.
I want to let you know you're driving me crazy.
I'd do anything to help you to see, i don't think you understand what you're doing to me.
You know that it's true.
Every now and then i want to call you baby.
You know that it's you.
I say a prayer that you'll come back to me lady.
Oh yeah.
Life ain't anything alone can't you see you're an angel in my eyes,
Everyday you're closer to me.

Nobody's there when i call your name,
And nights are cold girl without your flame.
But if i could girl i'd make you see.
That i'm sorry, and that i need you here with me.

Bridge

Chorus

Every day reminisce with the past
Of a love that we thought would last.
How we used to be when it was you and me.
How did it all disappear so fast.
There are days that i can't forget
There are things that i now regret.
I was there for you when you were there for me, and i was thinkin' we were set.
Every night when i'm laying in my bed
I hear your voice going round in my head, think of all the things i could have done and all those things i could have said.
I really will make it up to you
I know now what i've got to do,
It took time but now i've realised how much i'm missing you.

Chorus

This song brings memories..but its a nice song..~

Goodnight pple~
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Accidentally in Love

2005-03-02T23:16:00.000+08:00
[[took this off my old blog too..]]
Lyrics to the song playing on my blog

So she said what's the problem baby
What's the problem I don't know
Well maybe I'm in love (love)
Think about it every time
I think about it
Can't stop thinking 'bout it

How much longer will it take to cure this
Just to cure it cause I can't ignore it if it's love (love)
Makes me wanna turn around and face me but I don't know nothing 'bout love

Come on, come on
Turn a little faster
Come on, come on
The world will follow after
Come on, come on
Cause everybody's after love

So I said I'm a snowball running
Running down into the spring that's coming all this love
Melting under blue skies
Belting out sunlight
Shimmering love

Well baby I surrender
To the strawberry ice cream
Never ever end of all this love
Well I didn't mean to do it
But there's no escaping your love

These lines of lightning
Mean we're never alone,
Never alone, no, no

Come on, Come on
Move a little closer
Come on, Come on
I want to hear you whisper
Come on, Come on
Settle down inside my love

Come on, come on
Jump a little higher
Come on, come on
If you feel a little lighter
Come on, come on
We were once
Upon a time in love

We're accidentally in love
Accidentally in love [x7]

Accidentally

I'm In Love, I'm in Love,
I'm in Love, I'm in Love,
I'm in Love, I'm in Love,
Accidentally [x2]

Come on, come on
Spin a little tighter
Come on, come on
And the world's a little brighter
Come on, come on
Just get yourself inside her

Love ...I'm in love

~wheEE..this song totally rocks..i like it!! =) yaye. okay..ahha..shrek 2 rawks too :P ~~ [[ www.xanga.com/lightraven ]]

Like a Rose

2005-03-02T23:14:00.000+08:00
thankx Kenneth for sending me this song!! Finally found someone who has it =p you rawK~!
=D I took this off my xanga blog..[[ www.xanga.com/lightraven ]]

Like A Rose by A1

[BEN:] AND AS I LOOK INTO YOUR EYES
I SEE AN ANGEL IN DISGUISE
SENT FROM GOD ABOVE
FOR ME TO LOVE
TO HOLD AND IDOLISE

AND AS I HOLD YOUR BODY NEAR
I'LL SEE THIS MONTH THROUGH TO A YEAR
AND THEN FOREVER ON
TIL LIFE IS GONE
I'LL KEEP YOUR LOVING NEAR

AND NOW I'VE FINALLY FOUND MY WAY
TO LEAD ME DOWN THIS LONELY ROAD
ALL I HAVE TO DO
IS FOLLOW YOU
TO LIGHTEN OFF MY LOAD

YOU TREAT ME LIKE A ROSE
YOU GIVE ME ROOM TO GROW
YOU SHONE THE LIGHT OF LOVE ON ME
AND GAVE ME AIR SO I CAN BREATHE
YOU OPEN DOORS THAT CLOSE
IN A WORLD WHERE ANYTHING GOES
YOU GIVE ME STRENGTH SO I STAND TALL
JUST LIKE A ROSE

AND WHEN I FEEL LIKE HOPE IS GONE
YOU GIVE ME STRENGTH TO CARRY ON
EACH TIME I LOOK AT YOU
THERE'S SOMETHING NEW
TO KEEP OUR LOVING STRONG

I HEAR YOU WHISPER IN MY EAR
ALL OF THE WORDS I LONG TO HEAR
OF HOW YOU'LL ALWAYS BE
HERE NEXT TO ME
TO WIPE AWAY MY TEARS

AND NOW I'VE FINALLY FOUND MY WAY
TO LEAD ME DOWN THIS LONELY ROAD
ALL I HAVE TO DO
IS FOLLOW YOU
TO LIGHTEN OFF MY LOAD

YOU TREAT ME LIKE A ROSE
YOU GIVE ME ROOM TO GROW
YOU SHONE THE LIGHT OF LOVE ON ME
AND GAVE ME AIR SO I CAN BREATHE
YOU OPENED DOORS I CLOSED
IN A WORLD WHERE ANYTHING GOES
YOU GIVE ME STRENGTH SO I STAND TALL
WITHIN THIS BED OF EARTH
JUST LIKE A ROSE

AND THOUGH THE SEASONS CHANGE
OUR LOVE REMAINS THE SAME
YOU FACE THE THUNDER
WHEN THE SUNSHINE TURNS TO RAIN
JUST LIKE A ROSE

YOU TREAT ME LIKE A ROSE
YOU GIVE ME ROOM TO GROW
YOU SHONE THE LIGHT OF LOVE ON ME
AND GAVE ME AIR SO I CAN BREATHE
YOU OPENED DOORS I CLOSED
IN A WORLD WHERE ANYTHING GOES
YOU GIVE ME STRENGTH SO I STAND TALL
WITHIN THIS BED OF EARTH
JUST LIKE A ROSE

YOU GIVE ME STRENGTH SO I STAND TALL
WITHIN THIS BED OF EARTH
JUST LIKE A ROSE

new blog? wooHoo~

2005-02-28T02:15:00.000+08:00
just testing =D..haha..