It's been such a hectic and tiring week... Funny, how the holidays seem to be more packed than school days, how we seem to get busier, how we have more to do. Deon came over for breakfast yesterday and we had a pretty good time catching up over pancakes while I bitched about how much work there was to complete over the holidays that it was barely even an easter "break". Deon mentioned her tutors/lecturers said that it wasn't really a break, merely "a non-teaching week" where you have to be "self-taught". SELF TAUGHT? WITH THE AMOUNT OF ASSIGNMENTS/TAKE HOME EXAMS/MID SEMS THE WEEK IMMEDIATELY AFTER? Ohwell. Heaps of studying to do.


Even dad was kinda like : Wow what're you up to this week..? And I told him and I could just imagine that his face would be something like --> o.O
He said "aren't you on a break?" so I replied "yeah.. we are.. "break".. "


Anyway I shall try to make this post short, as I need to get ready for GROUP ASSIGNMENT meeting later. (see what I mean?) We had a terrible one the other day. Well, not terrible per se, just long tiring taxing tedious and mildly unproductive. And today I'm kinda going grudgingly. *drags feet* I'd much rather have done it another day - my cell group is going cycling today to the beach! I sooooo wanna join them! But ahwell I think this is where I should stop complaining and just go make the best of it. :)


Went for ignite service for the first time this week! And it was amazing. I won't go into detail but basically, for the past two days before Ignite I felt that God has really been emphasizing "faith" to me.. And i'm like. yes God, faith. What? Where? What do you want me to do? If you tell me "faith" will you not show me where I should be having faith in, what I should be having faith in or how I should be using this faith? And when I went for Ignite service it was just like - BAM. In your face Gwen. It wasn't something huge, it was small and simple but it meant so much to me. God is so good :) His timing is absolutely impeccable, I must say. Sometimes God is shouting in your ear , and still, you don't hear it. Why?


Gav was sharing with me about the Shakers' conference last night. Both Sherene and him got their breakthroughs in their ministries on one of the conference nights, and Gav was so excited about it. And what he said to me was.. I guess God has been pretty much "shouting it at me" but I never had my breakthrough till now. (On a sidenote, I know you're really excited Gav, and I am for you too!! yay!) but yeah.. y'know, sometimes we just have to not only pray "God what is it?" but also "God OPEN MY EYES and my EARS and show me exactly what".. "guide me".. mm? :)


I feel that the past coupla days God has really been challenging me to live my life as a child of God. How to do it? The little things I do, my short temper, my actions my words, what I think aloud.. etc etc.. How I conduct myself.. I guess I really have to watch it. And pray that God will guide. :) It's quite amazing really, sometimes I have my "bitch-moment" and some snide thought comes into my head... and I feel God giving me a reality check.. "GWEN. stop." and I'll be like o.O *slaps self* (okay not literally but you get the point). Yep it's really awesome. Also been learning how to just give everything up to Him, cos in His hands it can't go wrong. Not just big serious things/things to do with emotion (e.g. walk-with-God issues, family issues, relationship issues, friendship issues, etc etc) but also practical little things (e.g. studies, assignments, even just day-to-day decisions such as whether to go out and meet this person, or stay at home and clean the house, or go out with someone else instead etc etc) and reorganizing priorities. It's all good :) It's all His. Happy sad good bad awesome terrible.. All His :) And really just come, sit as His feet and wait on Him. It's the most amazing thing ever.


Okay I'm going to end here with an extract from a song, Potter's Hand and a quick mention to Cel's latest blogpost.

Here's the link: http://iloveceleste.blogspot.com/2009/04/dont-you-just-melt-i-jealous-very-very.html

It's so *awww* and gush-worthy, as she said. CEL you just made me go all soft inside. Rarghh. haha. Trust you to do something like that/ blog about something like that.. gushy gushy. Stop Jai-Hoing okay you look awesomely adorable but unbelievably stupid as well (HANNAH CAN VOUCH FOR THIS). LOVE YOU CEL CEL AND NAH NAH :p...


The Potter's Hand - Chorus
Take me, Mould me, Use me, Fill me
I give my life to the Potter's hand
Call me, Guide me, Lead me, Walk beside me
I give my life to the Potter's hand,
The Potter's hand

the waterfall neva stops --- we should never stop movin on too
at 7:34 AM

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