First of all - three cheers for the weekend!


No more sitting at the office desk turning myself into a tub of lard for at least the next 2 days (: This week has been a rather awesome week, actually! Busy, yes, but nonetheless very interesting week. Went for an SSO (30th anniversary) concert on Wed night, and the Volvo Ocean Race cocktail thing on Thurs night. T'was rather eye-opening...


PM Lee was there on Wed night, apparently moved almost to tears by an encore piece played in honour of him that night - it was the first clarinet concerto he played when he was in Secondary school, or so I heard. Got a chance to talk to him, actually more of say hi and smile at him while my brother and dad spoke to him... Met a whole rainbow of personalities that night.. Thursday was more of familiar faces from Dad's company, and enjoying the boat tour as we got to see the boats they would be sailing off in. Good luck to all the sailors for the next 9 months! From the video they showed us, it'd be a tough ride. a 9-month race! "Life at the extreme" was the slogan for the night - and I can understand why (:


So anyway, main point is: Today I read a blog that I haven't been to before (did make a mental note to, many times in fact, but never got down to reading it) and some things really struck me even as I glanced throguh it over my lunch break (yes, i was sitting here in office eating on my own :p).


God works in many amazing ways and we don't even realize it... Few things I wanna say to that person though - (: Ask and you will receive, Seek and you will find, Knock and the door will be opened for you. (I think i might have blogged about this sometime back, can't quite remember). Sometimes we think we're seeking and we do not find... why? I myself have realized why over the last one month. Through the massive fall I took, I learnt many things that maybe I woud never have if things hadn't changed in my life.


The bible said SEEK and you will find, not look and you will find. I didn't even open the bible for the verse - it popped right up in my head. and something somewhere whispered: "have you been looking? or have you been seeking?"


What's the difference then? Looking and seeking? This is from our everyday dictionary :

Look: to turn one's eyes toward something or in some direction in order to see
Seek: to go in search or quest of; to try to find or discover by searching or questioning


Seeking takes a lot more than just looking, it requires a kind of hunger. I always thought I was seeking, and asking, and knocking, but nah. I have always been looking. Maybe that's why it took me so long to find. (: Why does it seem then, sometimes when we don't seek, God suddenly seems to reveal so much? I guess in a sense, seeking can be a subconscious thing. you think you're not seeking, but in reality, you're not looking. Deep inside you ARE seeking, even as you make mental note NOT to look.


Personally for myself, there was a period of time I did seek. I sought with my heart.. then after awhile it probably got replaced by complacency and comfort. and i thought perhaps i was seeking all the time, but all i was doing was looking. Suddenly situations change, and cause this need in me - a hunger;passion;longing;necessity for me to find God once again. I didn't SEEK out of my own accord, but somewhere inside, my soul sought. And i think tha'ts when God started revealing, and teaching and guiding and showing me just how wonderful He is. How wonderful He has always been. How to find my joy in him, even in this abyss, in this place that sometimes seems like a junkyard, in this place filled with all us sinners. He has taught me how to find hope. He has taught me so much more than I could ever ask. (:


Perhaps that's why, sometimes we seem to seek and we don't find.. But we don't seek and we find. Why? Maybe we've all been looking.


Are you still looking? Seek.
Are you stepping out of your comfort zone today? Seek.
Seek, and you WILL find.


So anyway on a lighter note: Song for today-
Sometimes When We Touch


You ask me if I love you
And I choke on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly
Than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you
On what you say or do?
I'm only just beginning to see the real you

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Romance and all its strategy
Leaves me battling with my pride
But through the insecurity
Some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer
Still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
Still trapped within my youth

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

At times I'd like to break you
And drive you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through
And hold you endlessly

At times I understand you
And I know how hard you've tried
I've watched while love commands you
And I've watched love pass you by

At times I think we're drifters
Still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister
But then the passion flares again

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides


Beautiful, passionate song, with powerful lyrics.
In my opinion, of course. (:
It's a song that's been in my heart
- I'll be waiting till the day I see you again (:

the waterfall neva stops --- we should never stop movin on too
at 1:27 PM

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