once again, caught in the middle. two options, one choice. Is it just me? I dont know. am i talking strange? am i behaving weird? maybe..am i being to sensitive or were they picking on me? i keep thinking of dad's dream...is it true? was God trying to say something? I want to know..

if yuo've put in so much so so much into something..and things dnt turn out the way they should..how does it feel?
can a punishment ever be too harsh?
will there ever be too many questions to be asked?
if you're blamed for something you didn't do..how would you feel?
if you're wrongly accused, what would you do?
if no one around you can understand, what happens next?
if you can't let it out...
if you can't let it go...

if you've given soso much..yet everything's topsy turvey..
if you feel a certain way yet cannot express it..

i duno maybe its just me. it probbaly is. i can't find a way to let it out let it go...it always seems gone..seems to be going..and it comes back. I jsut wanna shut it out. out out. never let it back..

that somthing that you put so much into..it means alot.
it has to..if not you wouldn't bother putting all that effort, that sweat, that love..into it would you?
one setback. its gone..crushed..woudl you still lvoe it? treasure it?
its too dear to let go..can you ?
CAN I?
SHOULD I?
MUST I?
choices.

thank my blog for letting me let it out .. but i've yet to let it go..

God help me..give me strength..
Give me strength to pull through
give me wisdom..
give me wisdom to see your way..
wisdom to see what you want for me..let me know, let me feel let me see..
God grant me patience..
God grant me love..
Dont let the feeling..evolve anymore..it stops here Lord help me..
Lord teach me.. guide me.. show me..
this is my prayer..take this burden away Lord..
i can't take it anymore..soon..its wearing thin..
be with me, show me guide me teach me love me let me hear, let me see..let me know..let me u nderstand..let me love let me forgive..

the waterfall neva stops --- we should never stop movin on too
at 9:05 PM

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